Love never dies

Chapter 11 : love is not always beautiful

Christine's POV

" father never plays with me . Doesn't he love me ? " Gustave looked at me with despondency.
" Aww Gustave darling, of course he does . He's just tired . "
" He always reject me and shut me out . " he looked down .

I felt bad for Gustave but he was right . Raoul never gave him the attention or the love a child need from a father . Damn Raoul , he could atleast act like he care . I sat next to gustave and start to sing to him .

" Love's a curious thing . It often comes disguised . Look at love the wrong way , it goes un-recognized .. "

" so look with your heart and not with your eyes " I wish I did this 10 years ago when I first saw Erik . Though Erik may not be beautiful on the outside but the inside him was beautiful . His soul was deeper and exquisite than anyone I ever met  . " A heart understands , a heart never lies " why was I so blinded with looks , with Raoul's looks ? " believe what it feels and trust what it shows " should have listened to my heart 10 years ago . " look with your heart , the heart always knows "

" love is not always beautiful " I pinched Gustave nose and smiled at him . " not at the start " then my mind wandered off thinking about Erik . I remember when I screamed when I saw his face . How foolish was i ?
" So open your arms and close your eyes tight . Look with your heart and when it finds love , your heart will be right. " wish I was so sure of my decision 10 years ago .

" Learn from someone who knows . Make sure you don't forget " I do not want Gustave to make the same mistakes I did . I want him to love everything and knows that what's on the inside that counts .
" Love you misunderstand . Is love that you'll regret ... " I regret leaving Erik the moment he let me go . I misunderstood his love for me and I chose Raoul because I was afraid . I was really childish back then . I love Erik .. I still do .. Then I felt a little melancholy. Gustave can see it my face .

" look with your heart . And not with your eyes .The heart can't be fooled ."  Gustave starts singing . His voice is melodious  .
I replied " the heart is too wise ."
He answered back " forget what you think ."
" ignore what you hear . "

" Look with your heart it always sees clear . " 
" love is not always beautiful , not at the start . " I smiled at gustave . 
"So open your arms and close your eyes tight. Look with your heart and when it finds love your heart will be right .. " I hug gustave tightly , comforting him .

" Alright mother . I'll try to understand father . I know deep down he loves me . "
" Of course he does and I love you . "
" I love you too mother . "

Gustave is the only thing that keeps me alive . The only thing that brings me happiness . Raoul is not a good father nor a good husband . He keep drinking and wasting our money on gambling and doesn't really care about us . Thank god he haven't laid a hand on gustave . Doesn't matter that he hurts me but he cannot hurt my Gustave .

" time for bed now Gustave . "
" Alright mother . " he ran to his room .
" I'll be in in a minute . " I said

I planned to clean the living room before tucking in Gustave . I picked up the toy that plays the ' little Lotte " melody but out of sudden , the toy plays own it owns . How ?Something's not right . Why do I feel so nervous ? So I walk around . I sense a presence a presence I feel like I know . I look around panicking . I'm not sure what I was searching for and then I saw the balcony door open . And there He was .