Love never dies

Chapter 21 : the decision

Christine's POV

" And curt " the stage manager said

The curtain slowly rise up and there I was standing like before , in front of everyone . I'm wearing a blue dress that Erik himself sew . The background were decorated with feathers like a peacock . I should be worrying about my singing but all I can think about is choosing whether it will be Erik or Raoul . Raoul is standing on my left side and Erik is standing on my right side . How am I suppose to choose ? They both love me so much and I love them too . Then I start to sing .

" Who knows when love begins ? Who knows what makes it start ? One day it's simply there alive inside your heart . "
who am I going to choose ? Who am I going to hurt this time ?

" It slips into your thoughts . It infiltrates your soul . It takes you by surprise then seizes full control . " Will it be Raoul ? Can Raoul make me happy ? Will my heart be at ease ?

" Try to deny it and try to protest . But love won't let you go once you've been possessed "
I turn to look at Raoul . I did love Raoul , I really do but the love I felt for him .. was never the love I got possessed with . I never felt a connection with him . But with Erik .. it's different so different in so many beautiful ways .

" Love never dies . Love never falters . Once it has spoken , love is yours. Love never fades . Love never alters . Hearts may get broken , love endures .Hearts may get broken , love endures . " I don't dare to look at Erik , I keep denying I still love him but my heart says otherwise . Yes he left me but our love never fades , it's still there . Waiting for us to reunite . He is after all Gustave real father , Raoul will never be his real father .

" And soon as you submit , surrender flesh and bone . That love takes on a life much bigger than your own " I submitted to him that night , surrendering my soul to him .
" It uses you at whim and  drives you to despair and  forces you to feel more joy than you can bear "
it drives me crazy every night thinking about Erik , the day after he left me . I never stop thinking about him . Crying and wishing he would come back and save me from my painful heart .

" Love gives you pleasure and love brings you pain and yet when both are gone .. love will still remain " our love never left one another . Our soul is attached to one another . I needed him as much as he needed me . Erik is who im meant to be with . I turn too look at him . He was touching his heart as if my singing has healed him , he wanted to cry . I can see it in his eyes , he was proud of me . 

" Once it has spoken , love is yours . " and then I face forward and sing .
" Love never dies . Love never alters . Hearts may get broken love endures . Hearts may get broken.. "
I turn to look at Raoul , who's face look so defeated . He look at me one last time and walk away . I tried to go after him and stop him but then .. my heart asked me to stay and continue singing , so I look at Erik and then sing my heart out . This is the choice , I've decided .

I put out my hand and sing confidently.
" Love never dies . Love will continue . Love keeps on beating when you're gone . Love never dies , once it is in you . Life may be fleeting, love lives on . Life may be fleeting , love lives on  . "
and then the orchestra stop . I smile brightly and all the audience gave me a standing ovation. I bow down and smile . It's been so long, I feel so thrilled by the applause I got .