Sleeping With My Best Friend - (Complete)

Chapter 12 - Making a Deal

Berkley was stunned by Dean's question and she sat there silently, looking at him in disbelief for a few seconds while her mind struggled to process what he just asked.

"Are you just messing with me right now? If so, that's not funny," she said defensively, feeling aggravated that he was toying with her.

He looked at her with a completely straight face.

"Do I look like I'm joking?" he asked.

She scrunched her eyebrows in confusion. "But what happened to 'No way! It'll mess up our friendship!' and all that?"

"I know what I said," he told her, standing up and leaning his butt against the counter, letting out an exhale as he ran his hands up through his hair before shoving them in his pockets.

"But I gave it some thought and all the reasons you gave for why your first time should be with me, started to make sense."

"They did?" she asked, surprised to hear him say that.

"Yeah. I mean, you've known me your entire life and you trust me. You're really nervous, so it makes sense for you to want your first time to be with someone you feel comfortable and safe with and I've got experience, so I can teach you what I know. Plus, you don't have to worry about getting your heart broken, cause we both know we don't like each other like that. We can agree right from the start that it's just sex, just the one time, and nobody's gonna catch feelings and nobody's gonna get hurt. Then we'll go back to being just friends and act like nothing happened. Right?"

For some reason, hearing him say it out loud made it sound like a ridiculous idea.

"I don't know," she said hesitantly. "Do you really think we can do that? Have sex and then be normal around each other, like it never happened?"

He thought it over for a second before shrugging and saying, "Honestly, I have no idea. I've never slept with a close friend before."

He sat back down on the barstool beside her and exhaled deeply. "All I know is, the thought of you having your first time with Zander doesn't sit right with me. I can't stand that guy and I don't trust him. And I hate the thought of you doing it with some random stranger that doesn't care about you. What if they get impatient and they're too rough and they hurt you? Or what if you change your mind and don't want to go through with it, but they won't take no for an answer? I know people that's happened to."

She felt a cold chill run down her spine from the thought of it. "Yeah, I ummm, I hadn't thought about that," she said, swallowing hard.

Suddenly the idea of doing it with anybody else but Dean scared her. She knew he'd never do that to her.

"I've slept with a virgin before so I know what to expect and I can talk you through it," Dean told her. "If you agree to this, we can take our time and go as slow as you want, and if you change your mind and decide you want to stop, we can stop."

Hearing him say that calmed her nerves and made her feel better about the whole thing.

"Ok," she said quietly, nodding. "That sounds good."

They sat there in silence for a while, both thinking really hard until she finally broke the silence. "Are we seriously thinking about doing this?"

He looked over at her, studying her face. "I don't know. You tell me. It's up to you."

"I don't know. I'm confused," she said letting out an exhale, resting her elbows on the counter and putting her chin in her hands. "I was so sure about it when I came to you with the idea. But now, I just don't know. I mean, it's you and me. It would be so weird. Wouldn't it?"