When love hurts

Chapter 2

           Two weeks after

Bringg!!! Bringg!!!!

"Ughhh shut it offff" I groan from my sleep. Still not opening my eyes. Silently cursing the person who created alarms.

"Wake up babe. You know what today is"

A dark chuckle escaped from my husband as he spoke. Gosh his morning Voice is soo sexy. If I wasn't irritated by him right waking me up right now I would be so turned on

"I don't want to go" I whined into my pillow. Of course I knew what today was. That's why I don't want to get up.

"Hope common. You promised you'll do this today. It might finally be our time"

You wish.
We had another doctors appointment today. Meaning another round of endless needles and pins in my body only for the results to be negative again. Some would say I should at least be hopeful. But damn I've left the hopeful bus a long time ago. I wanted a child but I can't have one so why all the stress.
It isn't their body that's why they don't know what's it's like. No one ever asks me what I want. How I feel. How it feels. All they know is that they want a baby from me by any means possible.
I'm not a damn baby machine.
That's not how it works

I sighed.
"Okay okay. I'm up" I reluctantly got up and into the bathroom of our master bedroom. Honestly this house was unnecessarily too big I love it at first when we first got married and moved in cause mason said we'll fill it up with children.
So much for that thought.
Now it's just too big and the extra space is just useless and lonely.

"That's my girl." I heard him say behind me.
Ughhhh.
He better buy me donuts after this.

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No matter how long I stayed in the bathroom and nibbled on my breakfast to waste time and purposely delay my appointment I new I couldn't avoid it.
Mason was anxious and I didn't want to disappoint him anymore than I have.
But I already knew the result since my period ended yesterday. But I didn't want to tell him. I couldn't bear the disappointment on his face.
I'll rather let the doctors tell him. I loved him so much that I'll lie to him if I have to.

Dragging my feet, we made our way up to the hospital. We were in the VIP waiting room because I couldn't bear the shame of being photographed in the gynecologist section. The Media will immediately think I was pregnant and I'd never hear the last of it since I know I'm not.

"Mrs. Jennings you're up"
A nurse said as she smiles at us and ushered us into the doctors office.

Let's get this over with then.

Dr Michaels has been the Jennings family doctor even before I got married to mason. He's in his mid fifties and married with 6 kids. Tsk.  He was vivians gynecologist and she insisted he be mine. I knew what she was doing. The witch just wanted to know everything. I knew dr micheals was reporting every single test result back to her. That's just how desperate she was.
Ughh. Rich people and their ways.

"Good morning hope and mason"
He greeted. I smiled at him while mason shook his hand.

"How are you feeling today Hope"

Like I know I'm not pregnant so leave me the fuck alone !!!

"Very well thank you"
I lied with a small smile attached to it.

I tuned out how he was explaining today's procedure and how many needles he'll be sticking in me. I'm familiar with this and I just want to get it over with.

"Shall we begin"

Finally!!

"Of course. Are you ready babe" mason smiled at me. That smile that I knew was going to turn to a disappointed frown in a matter of hours.
It kills me to put him through this but it's not my fault.  I'm really trying so hard. If only they could see that.

With another fake smile I nodded my head.

Well here goes nothing

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Short chapter I know. Damn writing a book is so hard cause I have so much planned yet I don't want to rush the book. Let me know what you think in the comments

Till we meet again
Bimpe 💕