When love hurts

Chapter 16

SIT WITH THE PAIN UNTIL IT PASSES AND YOU WILL BE CALMER FOR THE NEXT ONE - Naval Ravicant

My eyes fluttered open as I tried to take in my surroundings.
From what I could register I was on my bed.  Laying in between two soft pillows.  I tried to sit up but unfortunately a sharp pain in my back stop me from doing so.

I winced harshly and that's when I remembered. 
He hit me.
Mason
Mason hit me last night.

Tears warmed my eyes at the thought that my husband has acted so cruel towards me.

But I don't remember getting into the bed last night. And in fact, I was cleaned up. Wearing different clothes and even my hair had been brushed

Could it be mason that put me together. Did he feel bad.? Did he regret everything that happened last night.?

I couldn't even find him in the room

Struggling to get out of bed and ignoring the aching pain in my back, I put on my slippers in attempt to go downstairs to find mason or at least eat breakfast. Glancing at the floor I saw that even all my decorations from last night had been put away. The room was spotless. Clean. Like I hadn't put together a whole decor to surprise my husband.

I don't know I feel about yesterday. But all I know is that wasn't my husband that definitely isn't the man I exchanged vows with 5 years ago. Never in my wildest dream did I ever think something like that would happen to me. Between us.

Gosh I need some thing to make me forget.
Make me feel like i did 5 years ago.
Without all these problems.
Without these new found sorrows.
Where had I gone wrong. What had I done wrong.

My thoughts were interrupted with the smell of freshly brewed coffee.
I didn't even notice I had finished walking down the stairs

In front of the cooker was my husband.
No scratch that. Mason. He was just mason to me now.

He was fully dressed for work yet he was here making breakfast?
That's a first.
I can't even remember the last time he made breakfast for us.

As if finally noticing my presence he turned around and placed a plate of eggs and hash browns on the dinning table and motioned for me to sit.

"Good morning" he said. Avoiding my eyes

Oh where are my manners. I didn't even have it in me to greet him back. Like all was okay. It wasn't. And if will never be okay.

He grabbed himself a plate and sat opposite me.

"Coffee?" He asked in one simple word.

okay this was definitely awkward. I still didn't say anything but I guess he took my silence as a yes as he poured me a mug before taking his seat back.

We at in silence. Unspoken words between each other but still we knew.
No one wanted to break the silence first and I was fine with that
After last night I don't think I even have the strength to constructs proper sentence to him.
What would I say. Where would I start from. What do you say to your husband after finding out he is cheating and then still manage to look past it. Then he ends up hitting you while trying to look after him. Where would I begin.

Finishing the last piece of egg, I stood up in attempt to clear my plate and put it in the sink, but a pair of large hands beat me to it.

"No I'll do it." He said. I didn't even have the strength to insist on doing it myself. If he deems, he does it.
I didn't feel the need to stop him. Why would I?

He looked like he was distracted while doing the dishes. I knew he was thinking of what to say but he didn't just know how to say it. I'm not sure if I even want to hear what he has to say. I need to gather my thought. 

"Hope" he whispered.

"Hope I- I don't know what came. Over me yesterday I- I just -"

I was backing him cause I couldn't bare to face him. That is supposed to be the man I loved. My husband. He's supposed to keep me safe and yet he was the one that hurt me in the worst way.
My chest felt suffocated and tears threatened to spill from my eyes.
Take a deep breadth. Breathe.

"I'm sorry. I don't know how many times I have to say that but I'm sorry. I really am. I swear it wasn't me baby you know I could never do anything to hurt you"

This man must think I'm stupid.
It's not just about him hitting me. Let's not forget about the cheating.

"Baby please just. Just say something please I'll do anything."
His voice was broken. He sounded so sincere. So remorseful. And if I was a fool then my stupid heart would have jumped all over him by now, accepting his excuse of an apology.

Thank God I wasn't.
Bunny. I'll never forget about that. I needed to know. Finding my voice and the courage to turn and face him, I looked him straight in the eye and asked

"Who is she." My throat burned from that simple statement. I'm not sure if it was because of the confrontation or because of the endless tears I shed last night.

He stilled and looked down. Still avoiding my eyes. He was fidgeting and I knew he was about to lie. Who would have thought that the ruthless billionaire would tremble at the thought of admitting to his dirty laundry. Magazines would thirst at the site of this.

"She's nobody "

"Don't lie to me "

"I'm not. She's not someone important. I met her at one of my friends house parties. She's nobody baby please"

"When did this start."

"Like 2 umm"

"Two what"

"Uh 2 months ago"

Liar. I knew he was lying but I had no way to prove it. No way to defend my self. What could I say. What would I say. This pain was too intense for me.  I can't carry all this alone.

"Why" was all I could manage to say.

I didn't have anything to say. And honestly I don't know what I expected him to say. What did I want to hear from him. Why he cheated on me ? Why he beat me ? Why what.? What kind of pain is this.
What on earth have I done to deserve all this. When one blessing comes my way there's always something there to take it away from me. Is this life? Is this what my life has turned into.

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