When love hurts

Chapter 12

Before you start this chapter I want you guys to join me to thank @aayina__safar

Thank you so much for your kind words and I encouragement. 

You guys please message me. I'm really Nice and I always reply. 

And please ignore any errors cause I just got my nails done yesterday and they are extra long so it's harder for me to type now. 

And I'm really sorry for not updating.  I have been having exams  but don't worry my final papers are tomorrow and I'll go back to updating.

With no further delay....... you may begin.

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I want to get a divorce.

I need to. 

But there are too many things in the way.

First is that if I leave, I won't have any where to go.  I didn't exactly invest in a house of my own because I didn't think I'll need it. Like ever.  And now I really do so invest wisely guys.

Second is my son. I have to remember that I have a son on the way.  I'm not just thinking about my self. My decision, whatever it may be will affect my sons life greatly. I need to think about that.

My parents were separated when they were still alive. But they did a great job raising me. Even though they made sure I had everything, I could easily see that it wasn't easy to raise a child in a separate home. I know what I had to go through. I wouldn't want that for my son.  I wouldn't want that for anyone actually.
But life isn't perfect. And mine definitely isn't.

Every second of the day I could always be thinking if mason is with her now.
It still surprises me every time that this is what my life has come to. 

I wake up everyday hoping this is a dream and he'll come back to me but I know it not.

I haven't seen him in two weeks because he moved out of our room. He stays in one of the guests room now and leaves for work before I wake up. 

Lord have mercy  I was loosing my mind

Perhaps the biggest mistake I made in the past was believing that love was about finding the right person. 

In reality, love is about becoming the right person. Don't look for the right person to spend the rest of your life with.  Become the person you want to spend the rest of your life with.

I had to be prepared for the worst. I can't let him keep looking down on me.  I'm tired of giving my self reasons why he's cheating on me. 

The ball is in my courage I have to play it.
I am a boss and I wasn't going to let him tell me other wise.  I feel so confident right now. 

I know my worth and I know the difference between what I'm getting and what I deserve and I definitely didn't deserve this

There isn't a single person on this planet that is entitled to treat me like shit.

I've got to show him what he's missing out on. 

Deciding on going shopping, I pick my phone and call Mia up.

After she agrees to come with me I go and get ready

Get ready to see a new me
Mason.

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Yes yes yes I
Know it's short chapter buttt.   It's cause this was just a filler chapter.  And I needed hope to boost her courage. The next one may also be like this cause I'm trying to make as time before I get to the main plot in chapter 14 or 15.

I just wanted to put this out for you guys that have been texting me so thank you so much and please keep texting me with your thoughts I love it.

Until next time my lovelies. 
Bimpe 💕