WAY: Ayrxton Wrecker [COMPLETED]

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Hindi ako lumabas ng araw na yon sa condo ko at nanatili lang ako doon dahil ayokong makita si wrecks. He even knows that I'm in that mall that time, so I bet he knows that I'm still here in my condo. The thought of him stalking me is very unbelievable but because of what's happening nowadays,   I must say, nothing is impossible but why?

Why is he doing these?

Yan ang tanging tanong na nasa isip ko.

Ano pa bang gusto niya? He has family, a wife and probably a children but what is he doing here? Bakit niya ako sinusundan? Arghh.

Damn it.

I badly need the answers now, kundi mababaliw na ako kakaisip.

Lumabas na ako ng condo ko at nagpunta sa aking restaurant dahil alam kong mahahanap ko siya roon. Nakarating na ako at pagkapasok ko palang sa restaurant ay nakita ko na siya agad.

Hilaw akong napangiti. He's really here, huh.

Tumayo siya sa kanyang pagkakaupo ng makita ako, mukhang inaasahan niya talaga na makikita niya ako rito. Muli kong pinakiramdaman ang sarili ko habang papalapit siya sa akin. Paraan palang ng pagtitig niya ay nanghihina na agad ako.

Who would've thought that someone like him can make me feel like this? So funny.

Ng tuluyan na siyang nasa harap ko ay saka na ako nagsalita.

"Fine, let's talk but not in here..." ani ko at naglakad papasok sa opisina ko. Binati ako ng mga staff ko at may kung anong pagtataka sa kanilang mukha ng makita ang taong nasa likuran ko. Huminga ako ng malalim bago binuksan ang pintuan.

Ng marinig ko ang pagsarado ng pintuan ay saka ko na siya nilingon at tinaasan ng kilay.

"Spill." I said and crossed my arms.

He licked his lips and stared at me. Napalunok ako dahil roon.

"I don't know how to start." he said with his shaky calm voice.

This was the first time that I heard his voice like this. Kinakabahan ba siya? Sa akin?

Binalewala ko ang nasa isip ko at matapang siyang tinignan.

"Then answer my question. What the fuck are you doing here? Why are you following me?"

He chuckled a little. "I got tired, eliszua." and then I saw the sadness in his eyes for a moment.

He got tired? Anong ibig niyang sabihin?

"What do you mean by that?"

He took one step from me and stopped.

"I'm tired watching you from afar, watching you with someone else and I'm fucking scared that someone might get your attention, to realize how beautiful you are and I don't want your fucking hands held by another man. I am tired of it that's why I am here right now. I don't want to stay behind your shadows anymore, I want you beside me and I would love if you'll stay with me for the rest of your life."

Parang hindi ako makahinga dahil sa mga sinabi niya. Napapikit ako habang dinadama ang sakit ng mga sinabi niya. God knows how much I want to hear that coming from him long time ago.

Ngumisi ako sa kanya. "I admire you for being so foolish, wrecks. But it's too late, and you fucking know that. Do you want me to laugh at you now? Because that's the funniest thing I heard from you." I bit my lips and didn't leave his eyes from me.

How can he say those words?! He's married already! Gusto niya ba akong gawing kabit? I can't take this bullshits.

He took another step and another step until he got closer with me. "I know this is hard for you to believe but I've loved you since the day I got my eyes on you in that coffee shop. Call me a jerk, asshole, bastard anything you want, eliszua because I deserved it, I made you cry a million times and broke your heart into pieces but trust me, I had to do it and it's for your own good. All I did was for you baby, please forgive me...take me back again." as soon as he got closer from me, I found my strength to push him away from me.

N-no...

I shouldn't listen to him!

I can still remember the days that he wished me gone!

"No! You're lying! You want me gone back then and if you love me, you wouldn't say that! And damn please...just leave me alone! I don't want to hear any lies from you anymore."

Sinubukan kong lumayo sa kanya pero nagagawa pa rin niya akong sundan at lapitan hanggang sa wala na akong maatrasan pa kaya naramdaman ko nalang ang higpit ng yakap niya sa akin.

Mas lalo lang akong napahagulgol ng maramdaman kung gaano ko ipinagdasal noon na makulong sa bisig niya. Dahil kahit kailan, hindi ko naramdaman ang yakap ng taong nagmamahal sa akin, ng mga taong mahal ko dahil palagi nalang nila akong tinutulak palayo, at iniiwan.

"I hate you! I fucking hate you! Why do you have to come back..." I kept on pushing him away from me pero masyado siyang malakas at mahigpit ang pagkakayakap niya sa akin na para bang ayaw na niya akong pakawalan.

"Oh God I missed you so much..."

Tuloy tuloy lang ang mga luha ko sa pagpatak. Ang unfair! Sobrang unfair ng mundo, bakit ganito? Kailan ba ako sasaya? Bakit puro nalang sakit at paghihirap? Ano bang nagawa ko?

We stayed being like that for 10 minutes? 15? 20? I don't know, I lost count. Tumigil na rin ako sa kakaiyak dahil sa ginawa niya. He made me calm. But what bothered me the most is that his shoulders shaken for a long time.

At ng sandaling humiwalay siya sa akin ay nakita ko kung gaano kapula ang mga mata niya na mukhang kakagaling lang sa pag iyak.

He cried?! All along, we were both crying? Is this real? Si wrecks nga ba talaga ito?

"Please don't run away from me again, eliszua. Wherever you go, I will always find my way back to you, because that's where I belong. I can't live without you because you took my heart with you. Damn, nakakabakla mang pakinggan pero yon talaga ang nararamdaman ko."

And I then for the very first time, I saw it, a man named Ayrxton Wrecker shed in tears in front of me.

I can't help but to clap my hands for him. He's the best actor I've ever seen.

"Wow. Did you memorized all of that? You're really good at this, did you know that?"

Kumunot ang noo niya dahil sa inasal ko.

"Do you really think this will make me happy? Seeing you cry and confessing your love for me will accept you with wide arms open? You're sick, so you should go because I won't believe any single word you said to me." tinalikuran ko na siya at hindi na nagtangkang lumingon pa.

Naghaharumentado ang puso ko ngayon. Matapos ang ilang minuto pero alam kong hindi pa siya umaalis. I bit my lip.

"Don't wait for me to call someone to make you leave, wrecks."

At dahil sa sinabi ko ay nakarinig ako ng mga yabag palayo sa akin. Hindi ba nakakatawa na parang dati lang ay ako ang nagmamakaawa na huwag niya akong paalisin pero look at us now, I'm now the one who's pushing him away.

"I won't give up, eliszua until I make your arms wide open for me."