my brother's friend; kv

chapter 36

"don't want to lose you.", jeongguk mumbles into taehyung's chest.

"you're not gonna lose me baby i'm right here.", taehyung says, having the courage to call him that since they both confessed.

the next thing they hear is a knock on the door and then jin comes in. "ggukie, jin hyung is here.", taehyung says and right now jeongguk is in such a vulnerable state, feeling like glass in taehyung's arms which could break any moment.

jeongguk lets go of taehyung sits down next to him, facing jin now. and even he has to gasp when he sees jeongguk's face, since it's really that bad.

"i'm gonna help you gguk.", jin smiles at him.

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jin took care of jeongguks injuries and left the two alone then to give them some time for theirselves.

"are you feeling better?", taehyung asks with a lot of worry in his eyes. jeongguk's face is obviously still bruised and he hates it so much to see it.

"i'm okay.. i think i'm ready to tell you."

they're sitting in front of each other and taehyung grabs one of jeongguk's hands, starting to do that stroky thing with his thumb and giving him an encouraging smile since whatever he's going to tell him now, must be hard to tell.

"take as much time as you need.", taehyung says as he sees jeongguk taking a deep breath.

"my dad passed away when i was 15. it was a car accident. he was always working very hard so that me and my mom would have enough money and could be happy, even though he didn't understand that we had more than enough. then one night when he came back from work, he was so tired that he doze off for a second. but that one second was already too much.", he smiles.

he lost control over the wheel and he drove into a truck, while another truck drove into his car from the side. he had no chance to survive."

"gguk, i'm so sorry.", taehyung says and would love to hug him again but he's far from finished with telling him everything.

"he was a very good father and husband. after that my mom freaked out. she was crying every night, barely got out of bed and also lost her job. it was very bad and it didn't stop. i tried everything to make her happy again but i couldn't. one night she told me that she's going to meet a friend or something but actually she went to a club. then she came back with him... god i wish she never met him. they had sex in the livingroom while i was in my room crying.", he chuckles. taehyung just looks at him with teary puppy eyes. he can't imagine how hard it must've been for him.

"i thought it was just a one night stand, but he didn't leave. he stayed with us. and at first i was kinda happy about it because i thought he could make mom happy again and also bring us a little money, but he didn't. he was even worse than mom. he got her into drugs and shit, god, i hate him so much."

taehyung squeezes jeongguk's hand lightly.

"and then it started. i realized no one was bringing money so i had to do it by myself and got a job. but they quickly started to spend also all of my money on alcohol and drugs. and when i said that i don't want to give it to them, h-he hurt me. once i also tried to tell them that i quit my job but they didn't believe me. one morning he followed me to my work place, and yeah. since then i was basically working to afford their alcohol and drugs. my mom didn't care when he hit me, i guess the money for her drugs was more important.", he chuckles.

"gguk, i'm so sorry to hear that.", he says, a tear leaving his eye and jeongguk quickly leans in to wipe it away.

"i won't let you go back to them.", taehyung says but jeongguk sighs.

"tae, i can't afford anything."

"we will find a solution. but for now you're staying here."

"tae i-"

"shut up. but there's still something we need to talk about. gguk.", he says, also grabbing his other hand now.

"why did you never tell me? or any of us? we could've helped you."

jeongguk gulps.

"tae i fell in love with you a long time ago."

taehyung opens his mouth but can't close it again.

"a-and i was scared. especially when i noticed you started to like me back. i wanted to stay away from you but i just couldn't. i always thought i wasn't good enough for you tae. i have nothing i can give you. no expensive dates- no-"

"jeon jeongguk you're the biggest idiot on this whole planet. how did you not understand that i only want you?! did you think i care about money or expensive restaurants? you are fucking stupid."

"n-no, i just thought you deserved it. and what will your parents think when they get to know me."

taehyung rolls his eyes.

"i don't give a fuck about what my parents say. i love you and i want you. only you. no billionaire in this world could make me feel like you do.", he says and jeongguk looks into his eyes, his gaze softening immediately at taehyung's words.

"and you know what?", taehyung chuckles. "i fell in love with you the first second i saw you. i walked in and looked like shit and i didn't even know your name but i knew i wanted you."

"like shit? you looked absolutely beautiful. i can remember it like it was yesterday."

now they both just smile.

"so... are you my boyfriend now?"

"of course i am, idiot.", taehyung says and they both start laughing as they hug each other.

"i love you.", taehyung mumbles into jeongguk's shoulder.

"i love you more."