Awkward Love •Narry•

chapter 17

This chapter is dedicated to theloveisreal

Thank you all so much for all the reads and votes, I'm going to try and write a TON of chapters the rest of this week, so next week I can update a lot and already have stuff written. School is starting back up next week for me and I'm probably going to be extremely stressed out. Thank you for reading!

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I wake up with Niall still laying in my arms and I can't help but stare in amazement at all of his intriguing facial features. His eyes are gently shut and his lips are slightly parted. It all looks so angelic to me.

His eyes flutter open and stare into mine. We sit there for a moment, lost in each other's eyes, in silence.

"Hey Harry," Niall says softly.

"Hey Niall," I respond.

"Are you okay?" He asks.

"I'm better, Ni," I lie. I still feel the same way when he looks at me. The guilt tearing through my stomach to a point where it's hard to eat because you feel like you're being eaten alive.

"Are...we?" Niall's eyes cast down as he spoke.

"Are we what?" I ask, unsure since it was an incomplete sentence.

"Are we okay?" Niall answers and I feel my stomach drop.

"It's all up to you," I reach my hand behind my neck.

"I want to be okay, but I know we're not. Please tell me everything you're really feeling right now, Harry? I need to know. I know you're lying about feeling better and stuff," Niall huffs.

"I am feeling better, Ni," I say through my teeth and attempt to flash a smile at him.

"Stop it!" Niall shocks me by sitting up quickly and straddling me.

"What?" I say and loosely wrap my arms around his waist.

"Stop lying to me," Niall's face comes in contact with my shoulder and I take the opportunity to rest my chin in his hair.

"I just feel a little, ya know, uneasy." I say hoping it's enough.

"Please tell me everything you're thinking and you've thought," Niall begs.

"I don't want to freak you out..." I say.

"I promise," Niall puts his hand over his heart, "nothing is freakier than you NOT telling me."

"Fine," I sigh, "I know you won't really get this, but I feel so empty. I feel like there's an empty space between my head and feet. If you shot me in the stomach, I don't even think I would feel it. I'm tired, I feel so wrapped up in doubt and sadness, but I can't change it. There's nothing I can do to change how I feel. I'm so in love with you, but you think I'm being foolish. I swear on my life, I would do anything for you, I love you." I say and move my fist through my hair.

"I don't know if I love you, Harry. I'm sorry, but I do like you. Also, I'm dating Liam. I can't just up and leave him like that because I think I'm in love or something," My heart sinks when I hear those words.

"Okay," is all I have to say.

"Harry, please don't be mad at me."

"I just poured my heart out to you and all you said was you're not sure because of Liam," I start to get a headache from all the conflict.

"Harry, come in. You know I can't just up and leave him! He's a nice guy!" Niall says.

"Please just go Niall, I need to be alone," I plead and Niall nods sadly in response.

I watch as Niall walks out of the hospital room.

I turn on my side and feel the tears quickly pour down my face.

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