Can We Keep It Together {Haikyuu Fanfic}

Chapter 6 ~ Fear

Kenma POV

I'm woken up by Kuroos soft whispers and his arms wrapping around my waist. I stir and turn to face him groggily. He smiles and kisses my forehead before pulling me into his chest. His warmth surrounds me as I melt into his arms. We lie there for a moment while he gently plays with my hair. "We have to go to breakfast soon," I say softly looking up at him. He frowns hugging me tighter. "No."

"Kuroo..." he groans, rolling over and pulling me on top of him, keeping his arms around me firmly. I sigh laying on his chest, listening to his slow breathing. "5 more minutes." He whispers, closing his eyes. I hum in response, loving the warmth of his touch and wanting to keep it as long as possible.

After 5 minutes his arms relax a little, letting me sit up. I rise looking down on him. He opens his eyes and lets his face fall into his usual smirk. I roll my eyes, before climbing off of him. He groans sitting up. He watches me head to our closet and grab one of his hoodies. I put it on knowing it's way too big on me. I turn around to see him grinning at me. I roll my eyes again, "come on, I'm hungry." He follows me out to the Kitchen where everyone is slowly getting food.

After breakfast, we walk back to our room to get ready for training. I'm really nervous about today. After seeing how worn out people were after conditioning, I became very scared of feeling so beat. I sigh while putting on my volleyball shorts and Nekoma jacket. Soon I feel Kuroo's arms slither around my waist, and his head rests on my shoulder. I ignore him and zip up my jacket, looking in the mirror above our dresser. "Nervous?" He asks, placing a light kiss in the crook of my neck. I sigh and nod gaining one more kiss before he pulls away to grab our bags. "Relax Kitten. Just do your best." I look at him and wrap my arms around his neck giving him a quick kiss on the cheek. I remove my arms and he stares at me shocked. I smile at his reaction and head to the door. He snaps out of it and joins me ruffling my hair and we head down to the gym.

As we near the gym I start to slowly shake. Ugh, can't you keep it together for once. Now is not the time to have a panic attack. I take deep breath after deep breath, trying to calm myself. Kuroo looks at me as I breathe and grabs my hand, squeezing it to reassure me. I relax a little refusing to look up at him knowing I'll be meet with a look of concern. When we near the gym I release my hand from his and head to the bench to change my shoes. Everyone else is either warming up or setting up the nets. I feel my heart rate rise more as practice nears. I start to slightly shake once more.

"You ok?" Kuroo asks, looking at me worried.

"Fine." I firmly say brushing him off. "Come on we should warm-up." I feel a little pissed. Not at him for caring, but at myself for being like this. I hear Kuroo let out a sigh before he joins me in stretching.

Practice starts off with spikes. This is great for me because I don't spike so my only job is to set the ball for everyone. When I set it for Kuroo he delivers one of his more powerful spikes. He looks at me grinning trying to get a reaction from me. I simple look at him with no expression gaining a frown a slight grunt as we heads to the back of the line. Though I show no expression i smile on the inside impressed by his power. I set a few more before my heart stops as I hear Kiyoko call for Kuroo and I. I gulp handing the ball off and slowly walking over. Kuroo smiles at me ruffling my hair. I just look down, wrapping my arms around myself for comfort. This is so stupid. I shouldn't be this anxious. It's not that big of a deal. I sigh as Takeda explains things. We soon lineup. I look down and take a deep breath. Yukie signals for us to go and we take off. Kuroo is a lot faster than me so he passes me with ease, I don't care though. All I'm focusing on is running to the line and then back.
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I soon feel like collapsing. My chest swells and my lungs beg for air. I'm still running pretty fast but I know I can't go much longer. My legs are weighing me down and burning. Kuroo is still going strong. He has passed me a few time but I expected that. Suddenly my body gives out and I fall down, completely collapsing on the cool floor. I bury my face in my pale arm and feel my body shaking as I gasp for air. My eyes burn with tears. I feel pain in every inch of my body. Kuroo's footsteps keeping passing me quickly. Takeda approaches me to make sure I'm awake. All I can give him is a weak thumbs up but I guess that's enough."

"Can you move?" I shake my head barley but he sees it. Soon I hear Kuroo approach quickly, then fall to his hands and knees not too far in front of me. I hear Takeda walk over to him. I still can't move. Every inch of my body is burning with pain and exhaustion. I can barely breathe and my tears aren't helping. I sob quietly trying to breathe but can't. It's a suffocating feeling. Suddenly a feel a shadow falls over me. Someone crouches in front of me and gently rubs their thumb in circles on my back. I sigh in relief, recognizing Kuroo's warmth. He is now close enough to hear my sobs. I hear him say something to Takeda before he brings his face closer to me. I keep my face buried in my arm. My entire body is now shaking and my cries are becoming stronger preventing me from getting air. I'm starting to feel very lightheaded which sends me into a slight panic. Kuroo is talking to me but I can't hear him. I barely notice him scooping me up and carrying me into another room. He sets me on a plain bed. I hug my knees, hiding my tears. Kuroo wraps his arms around me pulling my head up and placing it in his shoulder. "Shhh, it's ok. You're ok. Take a deep breath." He whispers to me, hugging tightly, and playing with my hair. I inhale and exhale shaking intensely. I keep breathing shaky breaths as my tears die down. When I can finally breathe he pulls away looking into my bloodshot eyes, smiling to reassure me I'm safe. I sigh and let my weak legs hand off the bed. I look down at my pale thighs as Kuroo gives me some water. I take it, my hand still slightly shaking. I down the water and Kuroo hands me cup after cup until I'm satisfied. I take a deep breath and fall forward letting my head rest on Kuroo's shoulder. He sighs, running his fingers through my hair. "Hey..." his deep voice is soothing and warming. It's all I want to hear right now. "Are you ok." No... I'm not ok in the slightest. I can barely feel my legs and feel on the verge of tears again. I shake my head against his neck and he sighs. "Ok... I'm going to take you back to the cabin. Sound good?" I nod, relaxing at the thought of being away from everything.

He picks me up again and I wrap my legs around his waist, my arms around his neck, burying my head into his chest. We walk out and emerge into the hot sun. I tighten my grip, holding on for dear life. I never want him to let go. Never.

Kuroo POV

I enter our room with Kenma tightly hanging onto me. I gently set him down on my bed. He lets out another shaky breath and he slowly lets go looking down. I sigh and give him a gentle kiss on his forehead. He exhales in relief but refrains from looking up, rubbing his eyes. I hate seeing him like this. Broken. Scared. I just want to help him. Be there for him. Hold him.

"Kenma..." I gently speak to him, giving his thigh a firm squeeze. He reluctantly looks me in the eye. "Talk to me," I say as softly as possible. He bits his lip and looks away taking a deep breath.

"I panicked. I couldn't breathe and felt like I might pass out." He chokes out the last part. I Sigh and stand up. I get on the bed and lie down pulling him on top of me, holding onto him as tightly as I can without hurting him. I let him breathe and rest on my chest.

"Shhh, it's ok. Today was the hardest day. It won't be like that again. I promise." He nods against me and we lie there for a good 30 minutes.

Soon we hear a knock at the door. Kenma quietly sighs and slowly rolls off me. I carefully sit up and walk to the door. I answer it to see Yukie.

"Hey, I just wanted to remind you too that you're scheduled to make lunch."

"Oh right, thanks. Well, be out in a bit." She nods and I close the door. I walk back over to see Kenma curled into a tight ball on the bed. I sigh and sit down scooping him up and moving him so he is sitting on my lap. He brings his arms around my neck and buries his face into my chest. I tightly hug him trying to make him feel as safe as possible.

"We should start lunch soon." He softly whispers against me but makes no move to leave.

"Are you sure you're up for it. I can take care of it." He chuckles a little to my offer which makes my heart beat faster. His laugh is so precious and adorable. "What I'm a good chef. I cook for you all the time and you say you love it." He looks up at me.

"I do love it but every time you cook you always almost light something on fire." He laughs again and I smile.

"Then let's go." He stands up and I ruffle his hair earning a groan and him rolling his eyes. I smile knowing he feels better.

"Come on." He starts for the door and I follow smiling, thinking of good ways I can turn this into a distraction.

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