Can We Keep It Together {Haikyuu Fanfic}

Chapter 24 ~ Talk to Me

Akaashi POV

Ever since the game of truth or dare I haven't been able to keep my mind straight. And Bokuto's not helping one bit. Everything is just kinda confusing. I know I like him but does he like me back? He's just so childish that it's hard to tell.

Ever since that night, he's been pretty flirty. But then he also just acts like a little kid. Either way, I'm not entirely sure what he's feeling.

"Heyyyy Akaashi." Bokuto smirks at me and then climbs on top of me. I was just peacefully laying on my bed scrolling through my phone. Now I have to focus on keeping the blush off my face as Bokuto straddles me.

"What." I say, sounding harsher than usual. It doesn't seem to faze him though. The stupid smirk he's wearing stays the same. He takes the phone out of my hand and I roll my eyes reaching for it. He keeps it away and starts going through it. I sit up and reach for it more. He holds it out behind him and I try to grab it before I realize how close I am to him. He's still on my lap and I'm inches away from his face, him still smirking. I glare at him and he smiles while a little blush falls over my face. Then he hands me my phone, gets up, and walks out the door.

I sit there, baffled and pissed at his annoying behavior. And at myself for giving him what he wanted. A reaction. I groan and fall back into my bed. Why is he being so confusing? It's driving me crazy.

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"Come on Akaashi!" I'm out of breath and feeling extremely exhausted. All of my sets have been off. It's so frustrating. I feel like I just can't do anything right now. It's all so overwhelming.

I set a ball to Bokuto and of course, I overdid it and he missed. I lean over resting on my knees, trying to cool off and get it together, ignoring the concerned looks from my team. I sigh and lean up again, taking a deep breath. I fiddle with my hands slightly and turn to our coach to tell him to continue.

I still overshot most of them but I calmed down slightly so some of them were still hit. I quickly enter our room and sigh in relief that I'm alone. I lean against the door and groan slightly, still feeling annoyed and pissed with myself. Why do I have to be so weak and pathetic? Why can't I ever express how I feel. Why can't I understand Bokuto? Why do I have to be like this? Why did it have to be him? Why is this killing me so much?

I grip my head and grit my teeth, sliding down the door and onto the floor. I just want to scream. Yell. Just... I throw my head back and hit the door ignoring the pain. Suddenly I hear a knock at the door.

"Akaashi?" I sigh and take a deep breath. Letting all my feelings fall deep down inside of me, and my face falls back to an expressionless state. I stand up and unlock the door, opening it and walking over to my bed. "Sorry." I say while picking up my phone. He walks over and stands directly in front of me, and as close to me as he can. I look up and gulp slightly. He takes my phone and throws it on the bed.

"What's wrong?" I sigh and push past him walking back to the bed to get my phone back while anxiously fiddling with my hands. "Nothing, I'm fine."

Before I reach it he grabs my wrist and pulls me back to face him. His expression is serious which is an unusual sight.

"I'm not blind. You don't always have to hide your emotions." I sigh and look away, his grip loosens on my wrist slightly but I make no move to pull away.

"I said I'm fine."

"You're not fine Akaashi." He lets go of my wrist completely and looks me deeply in the eyes. I bring my hands in front of me and fiddle with them.