20 cm || Choi Yeonjun

34

"Off you go, JiJi. We're here." Jin oppa pulled up in front of our house. "Say hi to Eomeoni for me." He said as he watched me take off my seatbelt. I paused for a moment and looked at him.

"Wait. You're not going inside?" I asked softly. He just shook his head, still has his hands on the wheel. "I have things to work on. Sorry, JiJi." Jin oppa offered me an apologetic smile. I gave a short wave and got out, muttering a goodbye as I watched his car speed up and disappear.

I rolled out my shoulders first before deciding to open the door. I groaned when I felt the knob was left unlocked again.

"I'm home! Mom! Dad!" I hollered as I walked to the living room. What shocked me is that not only was my mother and father already seated on the couches, but so was my brother. They were watching the news while drinking coffee.

My mom immediately shot up and wrapped her arms around me tightly. I grunted. "You're here!" She gushed as she placed her hands on both sides of my cheek, squeezing it in the process. "Let go of our daughter, Haneul. You're suffocating her!"

"Oh shut up, Jaebeom. I am not!" She continued showing affection by patting my head. "She must be tired. Let her sit, mom." My brother coldly interjected. I shot him a grateful look once I sat down on the couch. He didn't mirror my reaction though. He only continued to stare while his lips were in a thin line.

"Have you eaten, Jiwon?" My father asked. He sat beside me and continued drinking his coffee. I forced out a small smile and nodded my head. "We've already eaten. If ever you get hungry just heat up the food stashed in the fridge."

"Actually dad, I'll head upstairs now. I'm so tired." I feigned a yawn, stretching my arms a little to look convincing. I stood up and hugged both my parents, softly muttering 'goodnight' to them. I avoided Hoseok oppa's gaze, his eyes were still following my every move.

(MOAs I recommend you to play the video in the multimedia ;-;)

I slowly dragged myself up the stairs and opened the door to my room. A bitter smile appearing on my face as a wave of nostalgia hit me. It wasn't that long but it felt like a few years has gone by because of the events that has happened in my life.

I curled up in a fetus position and held my knees. My smile long gone the moment I was left alone in the four walls of my room.

Sometimes I get emotional
When I can't seem to find the way I'm supposed to go

"Just a little more, Jiwon. You'll get there." I whispered to myself. The deafening silence was too hard to take. These days I loathed being left alone. It was like I'm too vulnerable. Memories of him constantly plagued me. Everything reminded me of him. The dorm, microphones, our practice room. Even the way to Bighit emotionally hurt me.

So I hope you know
You're like the only reason I'm emotional
My tears fall like water so that I can grow

It was like a sick joke. We weren't even far off in our relationship but it really felt as if I have known him forever.

My thoughts unconsciously wandered to him. Was he okay? What was he doing today? Did he forget to bring his towel again? I shakily reached for my phone. I wanted to see him so bad. After a few minutes of just staring at the blank screen, I decided to let my curiosity have the best of me. I typed in his name.

So I'mma let the song cry
I'mma let my soul cry through these words
I need to try to free my mind

I whimpered when I saw his face pop out. They just finished their concert yesterday. And one particular video has placed on the number one spot. It was a solo performance. I couldn't help myself but to click on the video right away.

There he was sitting on a stool. The spotlight was completely focused on him as he sang with his eyes closed.

Oh my god. I can't do this. My eyes heated and tears immediately pooled at the sides, blurring my vision.

What am I supposed to do?
Hold it all together when I think of you?
In my heart I'm thinking you were gone too soon

Hurt. That was what he was desperately telling. How he wasn't okay. His cheeks were shaking visibly as he continued to sing. He was trying so hard not to cry in front of his fans.

Crying raindrops so that I can bloom
So what am I to do?
I can't hold back these tears
Let me cry

I sucked in a breath when his tears started to fall out. It was falling endlessly but he still continued to sing. His lips were quivering but every words he spoke made my stomach clench painfully. Now I was full on sobbing my heart out as I watch him stumble with his words as he slightly choked.

He turned slightly to the side, wiping his stubborn tears. The fans were going wild. They were all shouting words of comfort. His shoulder was visibly shaking still.

Oh, my sweet Yeonjun. I am so sorry.

I clenched the phone tightly as I cried with him. I repeatedly hit my chest, the immense pain made it difficult for me to breathe.

Oh god. I love him. I love Yeonjun so much. Realising it now that we broke up made me want to scream. I willingly let him go.

I bawled my eyes out that night. I didn't care anymore if anyone heard me. I was in pain.

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Yo, I just discovered this cool edit of Yeonjun's cover and it is sooo sick! My man just snatched my wig all over again effortlessly. I ain't complaining tho.

Hope you guys like this ehh chapter

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