Cheating with the Cheater (Island Of Sin #1)

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Kendrid and I are now official. He's my boyfriend, but I feel something hollow in my stomach. I don't know if what I did is right. I just made that decision (that he will be my boyfriend) because I'm very mad watching Darius flirted with that sexy model. And I now I finally realized that I'm jealous.

I fully understand now why I'm mad like that seing Darius flirted with other girls. And it's unfair for Kendrid. It feels like a sin also because my boyfriend is Kendrid but I realize that I like Darius. I like him!

But I don't want to take back my decision, it's very unfair. Ngayon ay nahihirapan ako. Nakokonsensiya dahil kapag kasama ko si Kendrid ay si Darius ang iniisip ko.

I stiffened when Kendrid kiss my cheeks.

"Bye. Take care," he said and smile sweetly. I hesitantly smile and wave my hands for a goodbye. We didn't kiss in lips, yet. Hindi ako komportable sa tuwing iisipin ko na maghahalikan kami ni Kendrid. I don't know if he understands about it because he only kiss my cheeks. Like a friendly kiss.

And everytime I think about kiss, Darius is the first person who pop in my mind. My decision frustrates me so much!

"Bye..."

This is my set up for one week. Kendrid always drive me in work. He kiss me in my cheeks before he go back. And I don't know if I should be thankful because Darius is not there everytime that happens. O hindi ko lang siya nakikita.

"Walang forever. Magkakahiwalay din kayo." Umirap si Mona.

Hindi ko namalayan na nasa gilid ko na pala siya. Ganito palagi si Mona but we're okay tho. But I can feel her cold treatment sometimes especially when Kendrid is with me.

Nagalit siya sa akin noong nalaman niyang nililigawan ako ni Kendrid. At sobra noong nalaman niyang sinagot ko siya. But now, she talks to me sometimes, pero nagtataray siya sa akin. Palagi siyang nagpaparinig ng kung ano-ano.

And she didn't treat Kendrid very well. Kaya ako na ang nahihiya para kay Kendrid.

"Pagsisihan mong ji-n-owa mo 'yang si Kentoy, Kris girl. Mas pinili mo ang jutay kaysa sa daks. Wala man lang kaumbok-umbok sa harapan. Sinayang mo ang sawang mabagsik, at malaman." Umirap ulit siya at hinawi ang kaniyang buhok.

I just shook my head while I'm going inside the building, kasunod kay Mona. She's still the annoying Mona even she treats me like this. I don't know if I will be happy because she talks to me now. Or not because she treated me and Kendrid like this.

"At hindi ka lang manhid, girl. Bobo ka rin. Yung Kentoy na 'yon, payatot 'yon girl. Si Dir napakalaki ng katawan at ng braso. Maugat pa! Parang si babe ko lang. Yung unang tingin mo palang, wild na agad!"

"I don't why are you talking about physical appearance and wildness," I rolled my eyes. Palagi niya lang itong sinasabi sa akin sa tuwing magkakasabay kami.

"Hindi, girl. Kinokonsensiya lang kita para matauhan ka. At ano namang meron sa Kentoy na 'yon? Unang tingin ko palang, ay jutay talaga 'to at boring," she cross her arms.  "Kailangan ka na talagang itali at pagsampal- sampalin ng sawang mabagsik!"

Hindi ko alam bakit hindi nawawala sa usapan ang 'sawa'? Maybe Mona is obsess with snakes?

We both stop walking when the elevator opens. Una siyang pumasok at sumunod ako sa kaniya. Nagvibrate ang cellphone ko kaya hinalungkat ko ito sa aking bag.

"And speaking of the man with not just having an ordinary sawa, but a mabagsik na sawa!" Napaangat ako ng tingin at sinundan ang nginuso niya.

It's Darius who walks straightly and very precise. Like a wild lion that can't be touched. And now that I realize that I like him, I can't look at him straightly. Natatakot ako na baka mabasa niya ang tunay kong nararamdaman kapag nagtama ang aming mata.