𝐾𝐸𝐸𝑃𝐼𝑁𝐺 𝐼𝑇 𝑅𝐸𝐴𝐿 2(Philia)

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Boy, you're my life even though you run the streets
It's all good cause I sleep on satin sheets.
Bonnie to your Clyde,
Riding forever by your side.
If the day ever comes and you should want out
I'll stick with you;
Of that have no doubt.
Even if our souls are marked
To die in a dim, unlit park,
Boy, know there's nothing I won't do.
I'd go to hell and back for you -poetry

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Aria
Regret in your tears, know you taste 'em
'Cause you know I don't chase, I replace 'em
Don't rush, take time, take some
I just wanted memories, tried to make some with you
You
Now I gotta erase 'em with you
You
Look at you now, stuck in the background
Silence right now sounds so loud
Tried to let you go, you come back 'round
Look at you now, stuck in the background
Two seats in my two seater-er-er
Used to pull off on me, leave me hur-urt
Tryna front, but I know you do your dir-irt
Not nice, boy you know you do your dirt"
I sung threw out the house as I picked all of ke stuff up nigga broke up with me you gotta go now

Ain't gonna leave my comfort and my kids comfort zone cause you wanna be a single man go right the fuck ahead I ain't stopping you

It's been two months since that argument and I was just getting to getting all his shit out of what was once our new house he was off on tour and I was now 7 months pregnant and 3 weeks

This was the toughest pregnancy I had I swear stress is something serious man but I just decided after everything I said to him and he just up and left me still I didn't mean nothing to him after all like I said before I was a bug caught in his web and he sucked me dry and let me go simple

I had kairi on the weekends and some days of the week but that was rare which I didn't like cause he made his mom make a schedule so it was like he snatched kairi from me to I was bitter as hell and mad the pregnant in me wanted to burn his shit the fuck up and blame it on my pregnancy

After the argument he LEFT forreal I didn't see him until he popped up on my timeline on a stage if only the world new how fucking neglectful he was to his child's mother I swear ion know what he did but it was like that family unit we had didn't exist no more

Bully barely spoke to me, joe didn't speak to me much but they were both on tour with him. Ma and pops checked in here and there but it was just me and yosohn all the time I stood my ground and kept our house

We haven't spoken to eachother at all i Hear his voice on kairi FaceTime calls to him on the weekends but that was all he ain't even call to check on his kid but if he wanna be that type of father he can I had me

The only people I truly leaned on was my mom, tae, and my dad kinda and my crew was still around I felt like he just limited me with his people like he wanted to take them away from me

I decided not to have a baby shower cause I would have to be around him and I wasn't even sure if I was gonna be able to make it to 8 or 9 months my doctor said I was at risk for a premature birth

Cause of my high levels of stress and my pressure was up I got her room together on my own I do everything on my own now but something I did decide on was her name officially

Kyla Klarke Brewster

I wanted to be petty and leave Kenen lastname out but I decided not to be a asshole like him
I got all his stuff into a box and taped it up I threw it infront of the stairs and kicked it down watching it fall

BOSS"
I'm upstairs"
These boxers are for what"
Send them to Dave"
Yes ma'am"he said and I walked in yosohn and kairi room and seen him now sleeping on his stomach surrounded by toys he was on his plush play-mat so I didn't move him

Plus I couldn't pick yosohn up anymore not since last week when I had a scare I thought my water broke I covered him with a blanket and closed his door

I heard my phone ringing and I wobbled into the room picking it up seeing bully name flash across the screen

Hello"I said nonchalantly
Hey sis"
Hi bully"
What you hostile for"he laughed
I'm not hostile I'm pregnant and tired"
Oh I was calling to see how you doing"
I'm fine"I said quickly and bluntly
Woah woah woah perry the platypus I sense a attitude"

Bully what you want you call me maybe once every two weeks and for what, to talk exactly bout nothing"I said and covered my mouth shit it slipped out

Damn my bad sis I just didn't wanna make shit weird since the whole thing wit him"
What does me and your bond have to do with him bully"I said sucking my teeth after
Nothing sis sorry how's the baby"
She's fine"
So the pregnancy good"
Yup"
Stop lieing"he said and I looked at my phone
What you mean I'm lieing"
Mama told me you might be having her early"

That's won't for you to know bully cause all you gonna do is go tell ya fuck ass brother"
Damn sis you ain't tell him that's fucked up"

My phone started beeping threw to somebody and I seen tae and I answered forget bully

Hey baby mama what you doing"
Nothing just threw his shit out"
Aria"
What it had to go"
I feel you girl but how the baby"
She fine right now"
Aight well imma bring some food in like two hours"
Ok"
Love you"
Love you to"

I clicked back to bully and seen he was still there

Damn just gonna put me on hold"
Somebody important called"
Oh aight well sis I miss you"
I had enough of this fake shit "bully what are you calling me for"
Look sis I was just tryna see how you been"
For what you don't give a fuck bully you call in check on ya niece barely....but I'm thankful for that cause her father tuh"I said and scoffed
What you mean I do care sis it's just you know my loyalty leans to him"

Fuck loyalty us breaking up has nothing to do with you bully let's be honest me and ya relationship shouldn't change cause of him"

I hung up and tossed my phone across the bed I'm sick of him somehow making me mad as hell someway some how I hate this nigga spinal cords bruh