Never Say Goodbye (boyxboy)

Dark Desire

*Hiccups P.O.V

I tried my hardest to avoid Jack. My resolve for that was locking myself up in my room with Toothless. My mind was still fresh with nightmares and this was the 3rd day with hardly any sleep. The nightmare sand or the nightmares kept me up. No matter what, I ran into a problem. I was slowly fading into despair. The despair Jack was talking about was finally appearing in me. But I didn't want to be a puppet for Pitch, I am stronger than Jack is. I mean... I don't think I have anything to worry about, right? I mean with Jack feeling the way he does and with me who has nothing but pain behind him, you can't take anymore away from me.

I felt the nightmare sand slowly spread and I looked down at my shoulder to see a big black blotch. I sat up on my bed and looked in the mirror to see it become purple and then red and then disappear under my skin. What the hell was that?

I heard a knock at the door and froze at the mirror. I heard it again, but stayed quiet.

"Hiccup, its me, Jack. I need to talk to you." He said through the door.

I cautiously backed up and sat down on the bed with out a word. I heard Jack sigh and heard his footsteps depressingly fautler away from my door. I looked up to see myself in the mirror. My hair was perfect but my face looked so worn down right now.

Toothless rubbed his head on my thigh making me look down at him. I know he's worried about me. Actually everyone was worried about me. I mean, why wouldn't they? I am slowly loosing my mind right. I felt the nightmare sand tug at my heart.

Hiccup, you don't seem to be following my orders. I heard inside my head.

"Pitch?" I asked.

Wow, I'm surprised you caught on that fast. They voice said. I thought you would've taken longer to respond.

"Yeah right, I know your voice." I said lowly to myself.

You do? Well I think I shall feel honored. He paused. Now where is you spirit? Go make friends with him. I'm still waiting for my broken Jack.

I smiled. "Well then you are gonna be waiting a long time, because if you couldn't tell, I am refusing you." I said.

Pitch chuckled. Such courage, but I know what you are really thinking.
"What am I really thinking then?" I asked.

You are thinking of Jack. That kiss he gave you on accident. Pitch paused. You are still thinking about his cold, soft lips aren't you?

I gulped. It is true but it was becuase it was so sudden and felt so weird. Of course I would still be thinking of it.

Why don't you go get some more. Force him. Pitch said.

I shook my head. "I'm not gonna do that!" I accidently shouted.

You know you want more of his body, its a desire that the nightmare sand wants. Your dark heart wants that desire he provides. Pitch said lowly into my head.

I felt myself bite my bottom lip hard. Was Pitch telling the truth right now? Did I want Jack?

Yes, let the dark desire in. Let it take care of your actions. Pitch said.

I felt myself smile, looking up into the mirror. My eyes flashed gold and I saw my face smirking. But it wasn't me who was smiling. "Oh good, this will do," I said.

What is this? I asked myself.

"This Hiccup, is the nightmare sand." My voice said. "Good thing your appearance didn't change. Maybe seducing Jack with your regular face on will be easier." My dark side said.

What do you mean? I asked.

"Didn't Pitch tell you? Sometimes his sand can show your true intentions." My voice said. "And you crave for Jack Frost. How naughty."

No I don't! I'm not gay! I shout.

I beg the differ, maybe this Hiccup will get my wish fulfilled. Pitch said.

"This will be kind of fun. Who knew you had this feeling." My voice said. "This dark desire."
Did the nightmare sand take over my body? I asked.
No and yes. This take over is because you suddenly succumbed to my words about Jack. Nightmare sand is a very unpredictable thing. It can take over practically anytime you become weak. Oh and the nightmares were my warning to you. This time Dark Hiccup will be suppressed, but if you don't follow my orders, know that this is my second plan. Pitch said.

I felt my body jolt back, making me have control of my body again. Great how the hell am I supposed to say no to his command a second time? How prepared is Pitch? Is he really ready to push me?