Forbidden Love// Dallas Winston

Chapter 18

    I got up to use the bathroom, but I just cried. I didn't feel like myself at all. I walked back to the living room, Soda sat next to me after Dally got up to get food. My friends came a few minutes later, I was happy to see them.

Sam: Where you goin'?

Soda: Getting some water, I'll be right back

Sam: Oh ok

Darry: Come here I'll keep you company

I got up and went to Darry, he held me tight. I didn't want him to let me go. I was scared for anyone to get up and leave, even for a second. Darry was rocking me to the point where I started to get sleepy. I didn't sleep at all last night, not even a nap. I tried to fight the sleep, but it was no use. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

Darry: I'm going to take her to my room

Soda: You should stay with her in case she wakes up

Darry: Yeah

Darry's P.O.V.

I laid sam down and I laid next to her. My poor sister, what happened shouldn't have happened to her. She needed me, she needed all of us to be there for her.

Ponyboy: Soda She's home now, it's ok

Soda: I know, it's just she's just so fragile. And he broke her

Ponyboy: He broke her? Who?

Soda: Matt, he raped Sam. I can't imagine what she's goin' through

Ponyboy: We just have to be there for her, she's tuff remember

Soda: Yeah I know

A couple minutes passed and Sam was moving around a lot. She was talking in her sleep, so I moved closer to her so she knows she's no alone. Within a few seconds she woke up breathing heavily. I tried to calls her down but I know Soda is the only who can

Darry: SODA COME HERE

Soda: What happened?

Darry: I don't know she's breathing heavily

Soda: I got this

Soda wraps his arms around her and starts talking to her. Their bond is so strong they know how to handle each other. 10 minutes passed and she started to catch her breath. I handed her some water and she chugged that down. I sat next to her with Soda and she was crying, this is something that's going to affect her mentally.

We started to notice that she can't be alone. She starts to get paranoid once someone leaves her for even a second. I had Soda stay with her while I made dinner, Pony and everyone weren't acting like themselves. I can understand why, we were all worried about Sam.

I can see the look in Dally's eyes that he really cares about her. We had to switch from person to person to stay with her when someone left to do something, it's sad and hard to see her go through this. I wish there was something I can do to make this go away but I can't.

~Weeks later~

It's only been 3 weeks since what had happened to me. I've been feeling depressed and alone. Darry got me to see a therapist, and she makes me write down how I'm feeling in a journal. Most of the time I get panic attacks that I can't control, I had one in school a few days ago.

Darry: Come on you go to see your therapist

Sam: Do I have to go today?

Darry: Yes now lets go

Sam: Fine, she doesn't help *rolled my eyes*

Darry: Steve will pick you up when you're done

Sam: Ok I'll see you later

I got out of the car and walked inside. I put my headphones on to watch some Netflix, before I had to go in. I don't want to be here at all, but Darry made me. "Samantha Curtis, you can come in now" I took off my headphones and walked inside, I sat down at the same chair.

Dr. Álvarez: Sam how are

Sam: Ok I guess, still experiencing trauma

Dr. Álvarez: Trauma? From what?

Sam: I was, I'm sorry can we talk about something else?

Dr. Àlvarez: What happened to you can be part of why you are depressed. So if you don't want to say it, write it

Sam: I wrote about it in the journal

I handed her the journal, and I told her to read page 4. It talks about everything, from when Ponyboy got beaten up. I don't know how this is supposed to help me, I just keep reliving it.

Dr. Àlvarez: Ok, this is dark

Sam: Can this session be over please

Dr. Àlvarez: Yes, we can talk more about this next week. Have a good day

Sam: You too