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Confessing

Warnings: Depressive thoughts. Depression. 

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Tobins POV:
I finish my talk with Jill when Chris comes into the room. "Toby what's happening?" My best friend asks. "It's nothing Chris." I say trying to get out of the room. "Tobin I think you should tell her. She could help you." "No Jill not everyone needs to know about this. It's dumb anyway." I see Jill look at me sadly. "It's not nothing Tobin." 'Why did you mention it. Of course it is dumb. Everyone will think you are weird and hard work. Why did you think Kelley couldn't stay in the same room as you freak. Chris would never want to be your friend after this. Let alone your girlfriend.'  I shake my head. "She wouldn't want to be my friend Jill. Just leave it Chris." I say sadly. "Tobin I will always be here for you. You can tell me anything. Nothing. I mean nothing will change our friendship." Chris says looking straight into my eyes. "Please stop Chris. I just can't." I say getting out of her hold and walking off. I know I should have told her but I'm weird. I guess its time to get ready for training. Just another day being an athlete. 

Kelleys POV:
I go up against y/n and get nutmegged. "No! She's like Tobin! I scream whilst dramatically falling making the team laugh. I continue to watch y/n as she fakes out Alyssa and Rabonas it into the top right. "Holy shit!" I hear someone shout. I walk over to y/n/n as I see Tobin talking to her. "Yo kid you okay?" I ask noticing she looks a bit faint. Just as I said that she passes out. Tobin catches her. "Jill! Dawn! Help!" I shout not knowing what to do. They run over and call training off. "Shes okay right?" Lindsey asks for about the 15th time. "Linny she just passes out she will be fine." Emily says. "Don't call me Linny Sonnett." Lindsey says storming off. "Well shit is going on over there." Chris says walking next to me. I nod my head. "Speaking of which what is happening with Tobin." I spin around looking at the 23. "She didn't tell you?" I say kind of shocked. Chris shakes her head sadly. "She said that it would ruin our friendship." "Fucking hell Tobin. Just keep checking in on her okay. Please Chris." I say desperate. "Yeah of course Kells. I do love her after all." She says worried. "Have you confessed or." "No. Kelley she is straight and anyway. She will never like me. I'm just her best friend. It hurts Kell." Chris says with tears in her eyes. "I know Chris. I know. Come here." I say giving her a hug. I see Tobin looking at us. "You okay Chris?" I ask her and she nods her head. "I'm going to quickly talk to Tobin." I say and she looks at her crush. "Make sure she is okay yeah." Chris says. "Of course Chris." I say and start walking to the number 17. 

Tobins POV:
I see Kelley walking over to me. "Piss off Kelley." I say. "Woah hang on what did I do." She asks confused. "You walked out. I needed you." "I'm sorry Tobin. I really am. I just. I should have known." I look at her. "You should have known. Are you kidding Kells. You couldn't have known hun. It's okay. It's my fault anyway." Kelley looks at me. "No don't say it's your fault. This is not your fault. You have a mental illness Tobin. You can't help that. That is human. You are normal. I love you Toby. Come here." She says giving me a hug. I cry into her arms. "I'm sorry Kelley." "Sh don't say sorry. Let it out okay. Your amazing Tobin." "You two okay?" I hear Carli ask Kelley. I feel Kelley nod her head. "Come on Toby let's head to the bus. Also I just wanted to say. I suggest you tell Chris." I look at her. "She will think I am weird Kelley." "Tobin Chris is the most understanding person I know and I have known her since Stanford. She is your best friend after all." I nod my head. "I guess I should talk to her." I say looking down. "She will be fine with it Tobs. You just got to trust her." I nod my head and get onto the bus. Here goes nothing.

Christen's POV:
"Hey can we talk when we get back to the hotel." Tobin asks on the ride home. "Yeah sure Toby." I say and she smiles. We get back to the hotel and we get to our room. "So today when Ash made that remark it didn't help me" Tobin says sitting on the bed. I sit next to her. "Didn't help you?" I ask confused. "I have been dealing with um I guess you could call them er depressive thoughts?" Tobin says. She continues. "Um and one of the many thoughts that go on in my head is er whether I am er gay or um straight I guess." "What are the other thoughts?" I ask. "Um they tell me that I am er weak, pathetic, ugly, fat, dumb um and more but I think you er get it." "Jesus." I get out. "Er two more things the first one is um I guess I will just show you." She starts pulling up her sleeve. "No." I say looking at her wrists. "I'm sorry." Tobin says her voice cracking. I hug her. "I'm so sorry Chris. I'm sorry. I'm sorry." She keeps repeating in my chest. I hold her and cry. "It's okay Tobin. Your okay." After a while we both calm down. "Okay just one more thing. I um just want to er get this off of my chest I guess. Please don't let it change our friendship. I um have feelings for you Christen and not just friendly ones I um. I like you, like, like you like you. Like I like y-" I cut her off by kissing her. We stop as air was becoming a problem. "I like you too." I say smiling. She flashes that million-dollar smile that I will never get tired of. "I'm so happy you are in my life." She tells me. I point to my lips and she kisses me again. Fuck my meditation this is the most relaxing thing in the world...

1099 Words. 28th of July 2020. Thank you for the support. I hope you liked this chapter. Have an amazing day/night.