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The Truth

Warnings: Depressive thoughts, mentions of abuse, attempted suicide. 

Hey guys sorry I haven't been writing recently. I am back though for now. I hope you enjoy this chapter and let's get into it.

Kelley's POV:

"Hey Kells how did it go?" Chris asks me. "I don't know she didn't want me to stay in the room." "Well I'm thinking of coming back here. Thank you for forcing me out today." Tobin says and we laugh. After a while we hear the door open. "So?" I ask y/n/n. "Just read the paper." She says and then walks off to the desk with Emma. I read it through. "Well?" Tobin asks. "She's dyslexic." I say. "Come on then. Thanks Emma." Y/n/n says. "Are you okay?" Chris asks her. "Yep why wouldn't I be." "You were just told you have dyslexia." Tobin says worried. "In a way it has helped I always thought I was dumb. I now have an explanation. Not that my teachers will listen." I nod my head. "I'm glad that you finally know what is happening to you. Why didn't your parents get it check out though. Cause they must have noticed that you where struggling." Tobin says. "Um they never really checked my grades." She says obviously lying. We get in the car and head back to the hotel. 

Y/n's POV:
"Yo y/n/n can I borrow you for a minute." Chris asks me. "Yeah sure Chris." I say walking into her and Tobin's room. "Tobin is going to be in the same room. Is that okay?" She asks. "Depends what you are asking." I say. "Well I called you my daughter a little while ago. You seemed a bit I don't know. Shocked and scared I guess. I only said it cause you say I'm like a mum to you. If you don't want me calling you that it's fine. I was just trying to-" "Okay Pressy I'm going to stop you there. I was just taken a back that's all. I don't mind you calling me your daughter. I actually quite like the sound of it." I say smiling a bit. She nods and smiles. "Well kiddo do you need help with your homework?" Tobin asks and I nod my head. "Before we do that I have one more question." Christen says. "Shoot." "I know about your dad." She says softly and my eyes tear up a bit. "I hate to ask this but what happened to your mum?" I scoff. "She's not my mum. She never will be." "Why?" Tobin asks. "Ever since dad went missing. She got a bit crazy. It started off fine at first a couple of drinks every so often. Then it turned into every night. Then she got drunk and high every night. She would blame me and my sister for dad's dissaperence. Then Lauren joined the army which only made her more angry. At this point the abuse wasn't just verbal. I remember one night laying on the ground just wanting to give up. My coach finally found out about it and she was arrested. I spent 3 years in the foster system because no-one wanted a kid my age. When I was 18 I was allowed to leave and I went to UNC I met Dixie, Amber and Chloe and they helped me out. Bambi always tried to get me off of drugs but I couldn't do it. They stuck with me for the whole time." I explain. I look up and see Chris crying. "Come here." Tobin says and we all hug. 

Tobin's POV:
"I love you." I say to y/n. "I love you too Toby." She says and I smile. 'She doesn't love you she is just saying that. Why would she ever love you. Christen doesn't even love you. I mean why would she look at you. Your so fat. Starve yourself it might make you look a bit better. Even better get the blade and cut yourself. You know you want to.'  I sigh. "You okay Tobin?" Y/n asks. "Yeah kiddo I'm just going to go to Kells for a bit." I say forcing a smile. "What about my homework?" "Chris can help with it. Right Pressy." I say and Christen nods and kisses me. "You sure your okay babe?" She whispers in my ear. "Just great." I say still smiling. 'Tell her how you really feel. Let her see how much of a freak you are. Fucking fatty look at you. Your disgusting. Go kill youself already no-one actually wants you here.'  I stand up and start walking out of the room. I let a few tears slip and continue walking down the hall. I hit someone. "What where you are going bitch!" The voice says and I quickly apologise. "Wait Toby?" The voice says. I look up and see Ash. "Are you okay?" She asks. I wipe my tears and put on a smile. "Yeah I was just going to head out to the roof." I say. "Do you mind if I join you." 'Say no. Then you can cut yourself and die up there. She doesn't actually care about you. Who would.' "It's fine I could use the company." 

Ashlyn's POV:
I was heading to mine and Ali's room when I hit someone. "Watch where you are going bitch!" I shout. "I'm sorry." I hear a recognisable voice say. I look up and see Tobin crying. "Wait Toby?" I ask and she looks at me. "Are you okay?" She wipes of her tears and puts on a smile. "Yeah I was just going to head up to the roof." I could tell something was up so I asked her if I could join her. We walk up to the roof and I see her getting stressed. "Toby everything okay and be honest this time." I ask when we get onto the roof. "Yeah I'm fine Ashy. Don't worry about it." I see her fidgeting about with her sleeve. "Tobin something is up. Talk to me. I'm here for you." "I just have one request Ashlyn." I nod my head listening well. Tobin never calls me Ashlyn unless it is something really important. "Keep an eye out for me tonight okay. Please." She begs. I've never seen Tobin like this before. "Yeah sure Toby." "Thank you Ashy. I love you so much." "I love you too Toby."

!!Major Trigger Warning!!

Tobin's POV:

I head back to my room and write the notes. I write one for Chris, y/n, Lindsey, Jill and one for the whole team. 'Just do it already. They won't care anyway.'  I go into the bathroom and get the blade out. I cut once and watch the blood run down my arm. I do it again until I hear a knock on the door. "Tobin open the fucking door!" Ashlyn screams. "Ash don't please!" I shout back crying. "What is happening?" Christen shouts. "Tobin we can talk about this please don't do it!" Ash shouts sobbing. "No! No! Tobin please!" Christen shouts obviously realising what is happening. I give in and open the door. "Oh my god." Ash says crying and hugging me. "I just want to give up! Please let me give up! Ash please!" I shout crying into her shirt. I need help...

1209 Words. 23rd of August 2020. Sorry it is quite a depressing chapter and I have also realised that I made Preath a couple in the beginning just pretend that that never happened. I love you all and have a great day/night.