You're Gonna Go Far, Kid {Jalex}

Chapter 16

Jack's P.O.V.

I woke up in Alex's arms. I felt sick. Alex had bags under his eyes and his hair was in different directions. He looked like a mess. I couldn't even imagine how bad I looked.

I groaned and slid under his arms. He didn't have a grip on me, almost like i was too fragile to hold.

I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. I looked terrible.

My hair was in every direction possible. My eyes had bags under them, on top of being red and puffy from crying. My face looked like every last bit of happiness had been drained from me. My arms were skinny and looked like bone. My whole body looked skinny and breakable for that matter.

I heard the door open and Alex appeared.

"What are you doing in here?"

"I have to go pee." He mumbled.

"Oh."

I left the bathroom, not knowing where else to go. I went into the living room and layed on the couch. I didn't feel like doing anything at all.

I felt like shit. I lost my dad, Zack, who's next? I was honestly just excpecting for someone else I love to die right now. I didn't deserve them anyways. They are all probably in another universe, laughing at how pathetic I am. They all hate me.

Everyone hates me.

I start crying into the pillow on the couch. I wanted everything to just go away. I wanted to go away.

I felt arms wrap around me and pic me up. I was crying into Alex for awhile.

Once I stopped, it just became silent.

"I wonder what it feels like." I whispered.

"Hm?" He asked.

"I wonder what it feels like, not hating yourself, not ever wanting to end your life, must be pretty great."

"Don't say that. I love you. I can't answer that questions for you, but I can answer a portion of it. Life wouldn't be so great if you weren't here." He told me.

He had his arms around my torso. I snaked mine around his waist. I put my head on his shoulder.

"Why do you love me so much?" I asked.

"Because you're perfect."

"No one's ever really perfect until you fall in love with them."

"Precisly."

"I wonder what I look like in your eyes."

"You look like, perfection. The way your hair sticks everywhere, and your brown eyes, I could get lost in them all day. Your nose is so cute and your face fits perfectly together. You're tall and sweet. I love every inch of you. It's crazy because it's unhealthy how much I think of you, but I ever since I met you, no one else is worth thinking about."

"I love you."

"I love you too."

We stayed in silence, just holding each other.

Alex got up and let me go.

"Would you like anything?"

I thought for a moment.

"One of your hugs would be nice."

He picked me up bridal style and carried me to the bedroom. He put the covers on both of us and he hugged me tight. I hugged back.

And we layed there.

For what seemed like hours.

I was so tired, and completely done. My body felt like there were swords in my stomach that I couldn't pull out. I was exahausted.