My Truest Identity

Chapter 15: The Paintings

Judge not, and you will not be judged; condemn not, and you will not be condemned; forgive, and you will be forgiven.
-Luke 6:37

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She's now inside the gallery room of the castle and as she passed by every painting her heart ached.

The paintings were all about her life series from the day she was born till she turned 18.

Far different from the ordinary paintings, these paintings before her seemed to have life and has the power to make someone go back to the past. Whenever she finished settling with that certain past experienced it was then she can go and continue with another but if she failed to settle she will be stocked in that painting forever.

" Open your eyes Princess and look at those paintings because there were some important things that happened in your life without your knowledge.
In your 18th year of existing, I want you to look at not only the negative things but search and see those positives."
Reminiscing about Jesus' words she finally opened her eyes and examined every painting. She started the painting of her 18th birthday and down to her infancy. She then realized that she had missed many beautiful things in her life. She also visibly saw and feel the love of her mom, Nanny Sunny, the twin, and especially the great love of God for her.

Meanwhile, she was already in front of the painting that portrayed the worst and horrifying experienced ever in her life. She closed her eyes not daring to face it and started to go out in the gallery room but the painting is pulling her closer.

" Princess there's no way back. You face it or you want to stock with this pain forever."

" I'm sorry Jesus but I can't."

" Are you going to give up now? You won't be free nor heal if you won't face it."

"How will I. It's too painful and the pain is piercing my heart."

" I know. But believe me, I will not leave you. I will share your pain. Princess let's do it together." And immediately Jesus appeared in front of her.

" Jesus"

" Yes, I am. Don't be afraid dear, I'm here" and embrace her.

Then the painting showed her a four years old girl crying inside the cabinet.

" It's me." Tears are now flowing down her cheeks but when she saw how her dad harshly treated her mom she moaned.

" I HATE HIM. I HATE YOU DAD!" she shouted and closed her eyes in order not to see the next incident.

" Princess open your eyes. I want you not to miss every detail of this situation for it's here you were stock."

"There's no need Lord. I already knew it. He will s-shoot my m-mom. I hate him."

"Do you hate him that way? Do you believe that he intentionally killed your mom? Princess, you were not there when the shooting occurred. You only heard it and you didn't see the whole incident."

" What do you mean? That his innocent." she started to get irritated.

" Yes, he is and I'm not condemning him."

"But he's a bad very man, he doesn't believe in you and he killed my innocent mom. Do you still won't condemn him!"She was angry.

"Still I won't but the more I love him and show him my mercy."

"Why? He's evil. He must be thrown and burned in hell."

"Princess, I know you hated your dad so much but it's not right to harshly judge him that way. Yes, your dad had lived an ungodly life and I've seen it. His coldness towards me and to all Christians made my heart ached but I never hated your dad. Why? Because I hate the sin but I love the sinner. I love him more than the number of his sins and failures. Do you know the background story of your dad? How he difficultly lived as a child,
teenager,
and became an adult?"

Princess was clueless about her dad's past life. All she knew that he was an atheist but she didn't know the reason why he hated God.

"Can you tell me something about him, Princess?"

Since she didn't know anything she responded to Him with silence.

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