True//Billie Eilish//

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*three months in*

So shit with Lauren was awkward. She didnt take the hint that I was in no way attracted to her and that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with Billie.

The scenes with us took multiple takes and I was not ready for the next scene I would have to be filming with her. As Melissa would say, "all good movies have to have either a lesbian couple or a sex scene so we are gonna do both" which I was not excited for.

Being one the main character and two the only other girl besides Lauren I already knew who my love interest was. I was sat in the costume room with my arms crossed as Jessica the costume designer shows me and Lauren different underwear sets.

"Ok so this one would be for Liz. Its a beautiful lace set with a thong that covers just enough" she says and I shake my head. "I'm sorry but the scene already makes me uncomfortable enough so could we go with something more coverage" I say annoyed.

"No I think less coverage is better" Lauren says and I have a strong urge to bash my head into the ground. "The audience will be thrilled and thats what we need" she says but I know thats not the only reason why. "Look we can add a little more coverage to the underwear but she is right. We need to wow the audience and leave them begging for more" Jessica says and I sigh. "Ok yea whatever" I state annoyed.

"Alright try them on" she says and tosses me mine. I head into the dressing room and change into the "totally coverage" outfit. I mean I dont enjoy this outfit but I know someone who will. With a quick snap of the camera I take a mirror selfie and send it to Billie before throwing my baggie sweater on so it covers most my body and walk out.

Laurens face instantly glows and I pull the sweater farther down. "Liz you can't wear the sweater in the shot" Jasmine says and I sigh and pull it off. I swear Lauren just squeezed her legs together.

"Oh my god you look amazing" Jasmine says and does a full 360 around me. "Alright I'll have Kristen put your hair in waves and light makeup for your look" she says and writes something down on her clipboard. "Ok ik gonna change now" I say and change back into my sweats and sweater.

I check my phone which has a notification from Billie. I roll my eyes at the dirty text and send her something even worse back before shutting my phone off. I head back to Jasmine as she sorts through my outfits for the movie and writes stuff on her clipboard.

"Alright be here by seven so we can start getting you ready" she says and I nod and run to my trailer while face timing Billie who answers instantly. "Hey you" she says and spins in her chair. "Hey beautiful" I say and crash on to the couch.

"Rough shoot" she asks and I pinch the bridge of my nose. "No just a dumb scene coming up that I dont want to do" I say. "What's the scene" Billie asks and I sigh. "Its with Lauren, and its a fucking sex scene since are characters are so in love" I say and Billie scoffs. Of course I told her what Lauren did, I'm no liar.

"I'm sorry honey. Just try to do it in one take alright" she says and I smile. "I intend too" I reply back and run a hand through my hair.

"Now about that picture" Billie says and I smirk. "What about it" I ask, innocently. "You know exactly" she says and I giggle. "If you do that shit again I may have to fly out there" she says and I tap my chin. "Maybe I'd like that" I shoot back and she throws her head back. "Fuck" she mumbles and takes a sharp breath in. "I love you" I say and blow a kiss.

"I love you too" she replies and her door opens. "And that's my que to go but I will talk to you later" Billie says and I smile. "Alright, I love you mama's" I say and she smiles. "I love you too baby girl" she hangs up and I shut my phone off and sigh. I dont want to film this scene with her!!!!!!

I set an alarm on my phone and throw a small blanket over me before cuddling up to a pillow. I need a small nap if I'm ever deal with her. I shut my eyes and fall asleep.

My alarm goes off and I shut it off and run a hand through my hair. I did not want to get up whatsoever but my trailer door opens. "Cmon they're waiting for us" Lauren says and I groan. "Alright I'll be up in a second" I say and pull the blanket more over me.

"Liz cmon and get up" she says and I sit up. "Alright let's go then" I mumble and tiredly follow after her. We get to the costume room where we put on the underwear set and are given outfits. Lauren's consisted of shorts and a Hollister top and mine was jeans, a white shirt and a black leather jacket which I hated wearing since it was so hot.

We are sent to makeup in which they apply light makeup to my face and curl my hair into beach waves. "Looking good" Lauren tells me and I stay silent.

We are sent off to stage and I already want to go home. Fuck my life.