Someone You Love / jirose ff

Chapter One

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❝ I like your eyes you looked away
when you pretend not to care
... the dimples on the corners
of the smile that you wear ❞

ʚ♡ɞ

I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to turn to

This all or nothing way of loving got me sleeping without you

Now, I need somebody to know

Somebody to heal

Somebody to have

Just to know how it feels

It's easy to say

But it's never the same

I guess I kinda liked the way you helped me escape

Love.

It's still a mystery to most of us. Whether we experienced it or not.

Sometimes you are so happy being with that someone you love you can die. But sometimes it hurts so much it's like you are dying.

And I tend to close my eyes when it hurts sometimes

I fall into your arms

I'll be safe in your sound til I come back around

In my case, I experienced both of those feelings. I was so happy that I was contented. I don't even care if I'm not as popular and rich as I am now. I don't care much about anything else. As long as I have him.

But then it all changed. My heart broke and I myself broke down. It's like killing me from the inside and all I could do is to cry. Like I lost all my sense of living.

It's like I literally died.

But now the day bleeds

Into nightfall

And you're not here

To get me through it all

I let my guard down

And then you pulled the rug

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved

But it already happened.

And all that I could do now is to continue on living alone with him not by my side. With him not being there when I needed him the most. I could only try to get used to it.

Get used to being that I was just someone he loved.

I let my guard down

And then you pulled the rug

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved...

As I ended that emotional performance of the song that I was covering, the light went dim as I slowly left the stage.

That was the last song of my concert so me along with the rest of the staff finally got to breath calmly as we had another successful concert done.

"You were so emotional there, Rosé. We were all in tears even your fans." My manager, Jennie, said.

I smiled. I got carried away, didn't I?

"Unnie, I suddenly wanted to write a new single."

Jennie's eyes widened at what I said, "you want to write a single? In the middle of your concert?!"

I nodded, "well yeah. That song inspired me to write one myself too."

She then looked at me as if already know where this is going.

"Is this song gonna be about your ex again?" She said in a monotonous tone while her arms are crossed on her chest.

I just smiled widely as my answer, knowing she already get the message. She may be my manager, but she's also my best friend and she knows what happened. My past and everything. Even the painful love story I had.

"Are you serious?"

"Come on! I promise you that I'm gonna move on. Slowly but surely. And this will help me move on." I said and tried to convince me.

"You already said that like a billion of times. You still haven't moved on, Ro." She then sighed, "but who am I to stop you. It is better to write those feelings instead of just keeping it in. Alright, I'll be reporting that to the management so that we can schedule when we can talk to the directors and producers."

I jump up and down happily as I hear her said that. I quickly thank her as I happily go to my dressing room to switch to my regular clothes.

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I thought it would be easy writing this song in the middle of going through my concert. I was wrong. And I wasn't even out of Korea yet.

Writing about my ex is usually just so easy. The moment I write the first words, everything just follows easily and perfectly. But this time it was different.

I got the melody down and even the chorus. As I was about to write the first verse, it's like I blacked out. I suddenly forgot about words and how to write which is weird and unusual.

It's already 12am and I'm just sitting in front of my work desk staring into my white wall. Sometimes I look over to the window beside my work desk. Still, my brain is empty.

I figured that I should just then sleep since nothing is coming out of my brain. But I couldn't sleep as well.

I groaned as I mess up my hair until it's just all over the place. First I don't know what to write and now I can't even sleep?! For some this maybe not a problem, but to me it is.

"You know what? Screw it, Chae!"

I groaned to myself before getting my cap, keys, wallet, and phone with me and left my apartment. I did not bother changing my sweat pants and black spaghetti strap since it's suitable to wear outside anyways. I just put on a bra and a jacket since it's cold in an autumn night.

I then drove off to Itaewon which is actually a 20 minute drive, not even thinking about the traffic. It's kind of far but it's worth it because Itaewon is always a good place to go to especially night time as the streets are still pretty much alive.

And maybe I could at least feel alive as well in this dead, chilly night.

ʚ♡ɞ

have ya'll watched itaewon class? what's your opinion abt it? i think it's good considering also of the social issues in it that makes the viewers aware that it's happening irl,, hbu? uwu