❝ you don't need someone to depend on to stand up on your own. ❞
rosé is a singer-songwriter who hasn't moved on from her abusive ex. she believes she's still in love with him and can only depend on him, not until she met jimin and made her change h...
❝ I loved you for so long sometimes it's hard to bear ❞
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I'm one of those people who were given lots of love ever since I was young. Everybody loves me and takes care of me.
Although I may have lost my mother when I barely could even walk on my two feet, I never experienced getting less love than anyone else.
You could say I was spoiled especially since I'm mostly surrounded by men and they would always treat me like a princess. So, I'm contented with having my dad, my cousins, aunts and uncles, some guy and girl friends.
And of course, my childhood sweet heart.
"Chan!" I called his name with such an enormous smile on my face.
Chan is my first crush, first love, first boyfriend, first kiss, first date. He was there ever since I was 3 years old and we were inseparable since then.
We go to the same school ever since pre-school and we practically see each other every day. We spend each day together but I never once got bored around him. Every day there'll be always something special.
"Ahh, Chaeyoung-ie~ You're done? You don't have any like schedule in the Performing Arts Club?"
"Yes," I replied in a slightly cute voice before clinging onto his right arm.
"So, shall we go eat some Tteokbokki?" He asked and I nodded immediately because I was starving. There's still a few hours before dinner time so I should eat something to satisfy my growling tummy.
We were such close friends but I liked him ever since. I still stand to the fact that males and females can be friends without any romantic attraction. I still do. I have some other guy friends too, but of course I can't help but find myself in love with him.
I was naturally scared to confess, worrying that it would ruin our friendship. So, I kept it in until we found out in a game back when we were in our junior year.
Just like any cliché movies where the main character is dared to confess to their crush, that's what happened. I was dared to confess to him.
At that time, most of us are under an influence of alcohol. And yes we were still underage so kids, don't be like us.
And me being drunk that night, I confessed. The next day, I was too shy and embarrassed to approach him. Only to find out that he confess that he likes me too.
Now, we're even more unbreakable than we had ever been. All the fear gradually went away and all I could feel is happiness.
We were young but so in love. We gave each other gifts on our birthdays and Christmas. Then when we became a couple, we now give each other gifts on our anniversary too.
Although, we weren't the rich ones in those times. So, the gifts are not extravagant but we put a lot of effort and thought into it which makes it meaningful.
Our dates consisted in eating street foods or at cheap restaurants, fast foods, and just by the convenience store in our neighborhood. Sometimes walking at the park at night and then going to each other's house to watch a movie together because going to the cinema can be more expensive. So, we just wait until there's a free version online.
Life was simple. I wasn't even famous yet nor I was in my journey to become a singer. All I have is the people who were precious to me and those moments.
Whenever I'm happy, I can celebrate it with him. Whenever I'm said, I can use his shoulders to cry on. Whenever I feel angry, he becomes angry with me. That's how it is. He'll always be there for me.
"Hey, Chae? What are you thinking?"
"Uhh-huh?" I stuttered, "N-nothing."
He smiled and then hands me one stick of the tteokbokki while he has another stick for himself. I returned the smile to him and gladly accepted the food.
What I was thinking at that time?
Jeong Chan was my life. And I couldn't imagine my life without him. I can see my future with him and no one else.
But life isn't something you can control of. You can't just say that this is how your life would go on.
You are not an author of your own life. You really don't have complete control with it.
And before you know, something sh*tty happens.
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ugh i'm sorry this part is short and boring oop pls don't come at me
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