Someone You Love / jirose ff

Chapter Eleven

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❝ I hate the way you let us go
like it was all just nothing
I hate the way you hit the notes
but not the words I'm saying ❞

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I felt like I was trap into a dark abyss. I just keep falling down and deeper and I don't have any way to get out of it. I don't know how.

What's worse is that I'm still surrounded of his words and it echoes throughout my mind. The more I tried to get it out of my mind, the more it just got louder that I have to cover my ears.

It's just getting worse and getting louder. I was so frustrated and afraid that I pulled my hair and clung onto it desperately. Like it's a rope that could get me out of this abyss. The voices in my mind got louder..

And louder..

Then I heard my phone ring.

It distracted me. But thank God that the voices vanished at least for a moment.

I crawled towards my bed because my phone was on the bed. I reach out to it helplessly and grab the phone and look at who's calling.

mr. park jimin

I immediately answered it and put it on speaker.

["Hello, Sweet Heart? You haven't been responding to my messages. I kept asking where we will eat."]

"J-jimin," I called his name and tried to hide my sob, but I failed because the moment I said his name my voice crack. Just leading me to another meltdown and just cried.

["Chaeyoung? Why are you crying? Where are you? Are you alright?"] He said, his tone of voice filled with worry.

Honestly, I don't know what to say at first. Just hearing his voice comforted me and I was contented with it. He can just continue speaking through the phone and I would be save from falling to the abyss.

But for the first time, I wasn't contented.

"Save me, please..."

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Waiting for him feel like an eternity. I still keep falling that abyss. I hated that feeling. I would rather just hit the bottom hard already instead of just falling down while my anxiety goes up.

I desperately wanted to leave this state. I desperately want someone to save me.

Well, that's what I always do. Desperately cling onto someone so that I could stand again.

I stare into nothing while waiting, still shaking in fear and trying to get out of it. The painful words still kept messing with my mind but then it switched to a voice calling out for my name. At first, I didn't recognize it nor reacted to it. I was still into the deepest part of my mind.

The feeling was like being passed out after I drowned. I couldn't wake up at first. But then that voice was like air. Then suddenly my body was being shaken as if to snap me out of my trance. It was like removing the water that I drank from drowning.