❝ you don't need someone to depend on to stand up on your own. ❞
rosé is a singer-songwriter who hasn't moved on from her abusive ex. she believes she's still in love with him and can only depend on him, not until she met jimin and made her change h...
❝ I loved you every minute, every second Loved you even if it was for a moment ❞
ʚ♡ɞ
The next day and still there was no sign of Jimin yet.
I feel extra tired today as I didn't get enough sleep again. My insomnia kicked in last night. At first I didn't want to take any sleeping pill but I couldn't help but take one when I feel like I couldn't sleep even how much I tried to.
I decided to go and have some exercise for at least 2 hours before I could fully concentrate on my song and ending it. So that's what I did.
After that, I went for lunch and took a bath before going to my entertainment's building. Jennie reserved a studio just for me which I was glad.
I played the instrumental of my song on repeat and get my brain cells running. I write everything I could think of and then crossing them out. I did some vocal warm-ups to also just practice singing while also trying to sing my song if it sounds right or not.
After awhile, I took a break. In my break, I decided to browse for a dining table online. I figured I'll just but online instead of actually going to the mall as it's safer for me that way.
While I was browsing in an online shop, I heard a knock from the studio's door. After a second, the door open and Jennie comes in.
"Heyya. How's everything going?" She asked.
I hummed, "Well I'm pretty much close. I'm still working on the right feeling but I hope I can have it done by tomorrow, I guess."
"Well, that's great!" She exclaimed. Just then, we heard another knock at the door.
It opened and came was Lisa, which is also a friend of mine. She's a choreographer under the company as well as a dancer. She's also part of my back-up dancer team so we often meet too.
"Hey, Ro. Hey, Jennie. Did I disturb your training?"
"No, Lisa. Why?"
"I have something to say to you." Lisa said.
My eyebrows furrowed, "what is it?"
"Well, the guy that you were on a scandal with came here earlier."
My eyes widened and I smiled automatically, "really? He's here? Where?"
"Well he only dropped by to give you this and eventually he left." Lisa said and hands out a pretty looking envelope.
It's a pink, scented envelope that was sealed with a cute, pink but in a darker shade ribbon. I accepted the envelope from Lisa.
"Anyway, I'll get going now. Still have to teach a girl group at the dance studio. Bye!" Lisa waved before leaving and closing the door behind her.
I then carefully untied the ribbon and opened the envelope.
I then read the content while Jennie is behind and peaked to the letter that was inside the envelope.
You are to meet Mister Park Jimin tonight at 8:00 in front of the first meeting place ! See you, SK's Sweetheart. XX - Mr. Park
I immediately chuckled at how silly he is. He sure have some fun writing notes and must've been doing it when he's in high school, huh?
"Wow, what an effort when he could've texted that to you. Are you really sure you aren't dating?" Jennie said.
I shook my head, "no."
"You sure? Then what's with the kisses?" Jennie said, pertaining to the "XX" written in the note.
"Well, I think it's nothing. People can say that to each other even if they are not dating. Besides, we're really just good friends." I defended.
"Wait, a few days ago you said you're only acquaintances who met by chance because you helped him. Now you're good friends?!"
"Why? What's wrong with it?" I asked.
"Nothing." Jennie answered. "It's just weird how you became immediately attach to that guy when after all these years you can only be stuck into one guy and that's your ex."
I was confused because I don't know what she meant by that or where this is going.
"Look. I'm just worried about you. I know I shouldn't be judging Jimin because I think he's a good and understanding person too. But the last time I saw you like that when you were still a trainee. You were so attached to you-know-who and ended up getting your heart hurt. You approached me as your best friend and told me how you were so hurt that he just left you all of a sudden when you don't even know why. Which is also why you haven't moved on and kept writing songs about him. And I just-" she halted.
"I don't want you to get hurt again."
Yeah, I remember that time. Although I never told Jennie the whole story. I just said we broke up and he didn't give me any reason. Never told her that he hurt me not only emotionally but physically. I haven't moved on because I was so attached to him and I can't accept that he left me. I can't accept and move on.
I was so hurt at that time. I planned to give up my career as well as suicide, but she convinced me to keep going. And I convinced myself too. I also don't want to leave my responsibilities of paying my dad's hospital bill.
I know where Jennie is coming from with this and I perfectly understand her. I am glad to have someone like her who's still beside me.
"Don't worry. I won't get hurt like that again."
Too late. My ex just hurt me two days ago.
I do love my ex and I still do, at least that's what I believe to be. But I do know and believe that I do not want to get hurt again.
But how?
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