Someone You Love / jirose ff

Chapter Eighteen

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❝ In a bit of time 'cause
we deserve better ❞

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After going to my ex's house, I then got to my workplace and stayed at the studio. I'm very close into finishing it so I figured that I should really finish it today.

I then thought about what happened earlier and then what I wanted to say through this song. I smiled because finally I know what to write. I know what I want to now.

I wrote the next few lines and scanned my work again. I check to see if I'm satisfied and made some little changes if necessary.

Then I'm done!

"Ahh, yes! I'm done!" I exclaimed on top of my lungs.

I then took some vocal warm-up and texted Jennie that I will be recording my song now. She was glad of course. She called in some producers to come to my studio to assist me.

So, that's what we did.

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We finished exactly at 6 in the evening.

"Let's have dinner together, Chae! To celebrate your new single." Jennie said which made me chuckle and agreed.

I have been thinking a lot while recording the song. Thinking about Jimin's confession and what I want to say to him. After recording the song, I finally have come to a decision.

"Shall we eat at the restaurant we used to eat back then?" Jennie suggested and I immediately smiled and nod.

After that, I got a reply from Jimin and said he can.

We then ate at the said restaurant and as expected it was a lovely time for me and Jennie. We catch up a bit. I still haven't told her about what's really happening though, but I didn't want to spoil the fun moment now because it's supposed to be a celebration. I'll just tell her next time.

After the dinner, I met Jimin back at the rooftop where he confessed to me as planned.

It was a lot more windy than usual so I had to tie my hair into a bun before I came up to the rooftop. There, I see him standing in the middle and was waiting for me.

I slowly walk my way towards him until I'm now face to face with him and just right in front of me.

"How's your day?" I asked.

"Well, it was fine. I dealt with some customers with foul mood but I managed." He said with a smile. "How about you? How's your day?"

I smiled back, "I finished my song."

"Really?! That's really great, I can't wait to listen to it."

After that, I don't really know what to say anymore. Or where to start. Or how do I even start.

"Do you want to tell me something?" He asked as his smile faded a bit.

I stuttered, "I don't know where to start-"

"Just say it. I'm ready to hear it." He said in a small smile.

I hesitated but I knew I have to say it now. The sooner, the better.

"I can't do this. At least not now. I need more time to heal myself. But this doesn't mean that I don't like you or anything. You helped me so much in so many aspects. I actually feel that I don't deserve you..."

I them look down into my fidgeting hands. I couldn't really let myself to look into his eyes. I feel too ashamed to look at them.

"You may think that I helped you through a lot. But believe me, you helped me more than I helped you." He said.

He got closer to me and puts his hands onto my shoulders.

"I-I'm sorry. I just... need more time." I said. I felt my tears starting to well up in my eyes and I'm just trying to contain them but I know I couldn't.

"I know. I know it's all so quick. That's why I am willing to wait until you are ready. Or you can also reject me now. I don't care. You don't get to always have 'yes' as an answer, right? I knew that. Still, I tried. I want to try.

"I am very much willing to give you the space you need because I think you needed that too. You've been through so much pain. And I don't want to rush you to open the door for me. I want you to take your time until you are willing to open the door for me." He said.

I then slowly felt his arms go slowly around me and take me into his embrace. I can't help but pathetically cried in his arms for the nth time.

"I'm sorry." That was all that I could say.

"You don't have to be sorry. You have nothing to be sorry about." He said as he tightens the hug and I did the same.

Deep down, I know that I don't want to let him go. I want him by my side. I need him by my side. But I can't have him while I am still broken. I don't want him to fix me. I want to fix myself before I could go to him and have him.

I want to be ready and to be fully healed before everything else. The last thing I would want is for him to pull him down with me and get broken too.

And I think it's for the best.

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