Mate//Werewolf Shawn Mendes

Chapter 34: Nobody Finds Out

All Shawn had wanted to do was hold me after he had found out about Dereck, but all I wanted to do was forget about it. I didn't want anyone to know and feel bad for me, it was bad enough that Shawn knew.

"I'm gonna go to the bathroom," I said quietly, sitting up carefully.

"Are you sure you're okay baby?" Shawn asked, seeing right through me, as usual.

I nodded weakly, rushing to the bathoom that was in the room, immediately breaking down.

Tears flowed down my face freely as I slid down the wall, grasping my head in my hands. I ran my fingers through my hair harshly, sobbing.

I was so tired of feeling so helpless.

I stood up slowly, turning the sadness into rage. I turned around swiftly, smashing my fist into the mirror, shattering it and gasping as I watched the blood flow from jagged cuts now in my knuckles.

"EMIKO!" Shawn roared, barging in and seeing me with bloody knuckles, puffy eyes, and a smashed mirror.

He rushed over to me, pulling me into a hug. I melted into him, crying into his chest as he kissed my cut up knuckles.

"Let's clean this up," He said softly, looking deeply into my eyes as I nodded.

He led me over to the sink and took my hand, pushing it under the cold water, causing it to sting.

I hissed in pain, causing him to kiss my forehead and pull my now-clean hand out of the water, gently drying it off with a towel that was hanging on the rack.

"Show me," he whispered, confusing me.

"Show you what?" I asked.

"The scars," he replied simply, giving me a reassuring nod as I pulled up my shirt, a jagged heart engraved in my skin.

"He told me, when he did this, that the reason he was doing it was so I would always remember that he loved me and I couldn't leave him," I explained, the memory causing me to wince.

He stood behind me, my shoulders and back to his chest, his head on top of mine.

He gently ran his hand across the scar, looking like he was trying to stay calm.

"How can you still be so beautiful?" He asked softly, causing me to smile.

He kneeled down, kissing the scar lightly.

"You're mine, Emiko. You will always be mine, and he will never, ever, touch you again. I will protect you forever," he said gently, kissing me lightly.

"I don't understand why you still put up with me," I joked, trying my best to lighten the mood.

"Me neither. I guess it might have something to do with how I'm in love with you and everything. But I mean, I don't know. It might just be because you're clumsiness keeps me entertained," he replied playfully, standing back up and kissing my forehead.

"I'm hilarious," I scoffed, sticking my tongue out at him.

"Well I wouldn't go that far...." He said jokingly, causing me to roll my eyes at him.

"You're such a loser," I smiled, wrapping my arms around his neck.

"But you love me anywaayyy," he trailed off, scrunching his face up and making me laugh, his long arms wrapping around my waist.

"Unfortunately," I mumbled, grinning and pecking him on the lips to show I was joking.

"Can we tell the boys? Well, and the girls," he added, looking at me carefully.

"No. Nobody finds out. I don't want anybody to know," I said, looking up at him.

"Well, they're gonna wanna see you, so let's go and see them, yeah?" He asked, waiting for my nod and then pulling me out the door.

"Em!" Lauren yelled, running and jumping on me.

"Mel!" I yelled back, letting go of Shawn to hug her dramatically, everybody laughing.

"I missed you. Cam is boring," she pouted, causing me to laugh as Cam pouted.

"Don't forget about me!" Nash yelled, jumping on me.

He picked me up in a hug, spinning me around.

"Shawn, you need to stop stealing her away from us," Nash pouted playfully, Shawn actually smiling for once.

"Sorry man," he said back, grinning at us.

"Hey, move," Cam said, hugging me.

After that, Mari, Laya, and all the guys hugged me, asking if I was okay, to which I replied with a nod and a smile.

"What's that?" Nash asked, pointing to the wrap around my hand.

"I fell off the bed and hit my hand on the nightstand," I said, panicking a little.

"Yeah, I had to wrap it up because she never stops running into things," Shawn lied, rolling his eyes.

Nash, Cam, and Melissa all gave me suspicious looks, along with the girls and Jack and Jack. Taylor knew I was lying, I could tell. So when he mouthed to me 'Tell me later,' I couldn't do anything but nod.

"You sure thats what happened?" Jack J said, looking at me.

"Uh...," I said, unable to lie to my best friends.

"You know you can tell us anything, right?" Stormi said, causing me to nod.

I wasn't sure if I was ready to tell them. Not yet.

"Just tell us when you're ready," Cam said, all the boys and girls nodding along.

"It's not that I don't trust you, it's just that I'm not ready to tell anybody yet. It slipped out when I was with Shawn, but it's hard for me to talk about. I will tell you guys eventually, I'm just not ready," I explained, Shawn giving me a look saying 'you don't have to do this,'

"You don't have to tell us if you don't want to," Nash said, Jack G agreeing.

"We're here if you ever need someone to talk to, okay?" Taylor said, and I nodded.

"Thanks guys," I smiled.

"Group hug!" Jake called out, everybody basically tackling me.

"I love you guys," Shawn said.

"Love you!" I yelled, dragging everybody down to the floor.

We all started laughing, and I was happy. I knew I had found where I belonged.

"Excuse me, miss Matthews, you're free to go. And I'm going to have to ask you and your friends to leave. You're disturbing the patients," A snotty lady said, all of us quickly hopping up.

"Okay, thanks. Let's go guys!" I yelled, all of us cheering and running out to the car, or cars.

I had changed when I was in the bathroom with Shawn, well right before anyways, so I was good. Time to go home to my house and be with all if my friends. The time for doing something fun is becoming overdue. I think we were about to fix that.