Captured by darkness ( Dark series #1 ) UNDER-EDITING

Chapter 40

Unfair

The serenity of my Mami's voice made me all remember all those things. I'm in the present now, I should forget it, pero ang hirap parin talaga! Kinuwento ko sa kanya ang lahat kung saan kami nagsimula at kung saan rin ito natuldukan.

Malcolm put a point in our story, he ended it peacefully. He's gone forever... Narinig ko ang katok sa pintuan ko, I saw the doorknob twist. Dumungaw ang ulo ni Mami rito na nakangiti.

Nalala kong inabot kami ng madaling araw dahil sa pagkuwento ko sa kanya ng mga pangyayaring iyon, But I must say that-- I feel a lot better now. Because I know there's someone who'll listened to me. And it's her.

"Nakatulog ka ba ng maayos?" She gently asked.

Umurong ako sa kabilang side ng kama at pinaupo siya. She touched my shoulder and give me a comforting smile.

"Hindi po, I did'nt sleep all night,"

Hinaplos niya ang buhok ko pababa sa pisngi ko. "Take a sleep for now, halatang kulang ka sa tulog."

Umiling ako bilang pagtanggi. "Hindi, ayus lang po, tutulong ako ngayon kila Tata."

She gave me a concerned looked. "Sigurado ka ba hija?"

Tumango lang ako bilang sagot at tumayo na sa kama para ayusin ang sarili. Ayokong manatili sa kama ko, dahil alam kong hindi ako patutulugin ng mga ala -ala na iyon. It keeps on chasing and hunting me. Malcolm's disappearance will be my nightmare.

Pagkatapos kong ayusin ang sarili ko, bumaba ako ng hagdan para mag agahan. Naririnig ko narin ang kalantsing ng mga kutsara at tinidor sa plato. Naghahain na siguro sila.

I thought there will just me, Tata and Mami, but I was dumbfounded seeing Aviana here. She's smiling while talking to them.

Tumakbo ako papalapit sa kanya. "Aviana!"

She turned around and smiled back at me excitedly. "How did you know I'll leave here?"

"Duh! Of course, I have my source. Pero bago 'yun, umuwi na muna ako sa condo,"

Nawala ang ngiti ko dahil sa ginawa ko sa loob ng kwarto ko doon, nakita kaya niya? It's been a month since I left it there.

"D-did you saw something?"

Nagaalinlangan siyang tumango, I bit my lips to stop myslef from crying. Umagang umaga, huwag naman ngayon please. Don't be a traitor today please...

Nagpaalam kami sandali kina Mami at Tata na mag uusap sa labas at babalik rin kaagad para mag agahan.

Aviana opened her pouched and tooked out a small photo paper, it's a bit grimy and yellowish. The photo paper changed. But I knew, the one who's in the picture is already gone. It haven't changed.

Quivering, lips trembling, eyes filled wih tears, I tooked it for the second time. I stumbled and mourned again.

"He's gone Av, Malcolm's gone, iniwan na niya talaga 'ko, 'di na siya babalik,"

Parang batang nagsusumbong sabi ko kay Aviana. I thought it's okay not to be okay, but not all the time, you need to let it all out and let it passed. Until you feel nothing. Until you feel numb.

But in my case, it shattered me completely...

What should I do? My world's gone, he's gone. Malcom's gone...

Lumuhod sa harapan ko si Aviana at niyakap ako ng mahigpit, she didn't say any words and let me cried. It's all the best that I can do, crying. I didn't know it's possible for a person to be okay for a day, and cry again after reminiscing some good days.

Losing Malcolm totally fucked me up! He's really full of surprises, Malcolm's really a mystery. Na kahit ang pagkawala niya ay napakalaki pa ring misteryo para sa akin.

Even if he's gone, he let me be alone in such dark places without a luminescence around me. You're unfair Malcolm. Really unfair!

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