Just friends with benefits right?

Scared shitless

Hero's pov

This past week has been absolute hell. Jo has been miserable being stuck in the house and is taking her frustration out on me. Which means I have been without her loving touch and it's killing me. Finally it's Monday and we get to go see how are baby is doing and I pray to God everything is back on track. I'm fucking scared shitless but I need to be stay strong for them. I'm making us a quick breakfast just some waffles and bacon. As Jo walks in the kitchen fresh out of the shower her hair still damp she's wearing black leggings and an over sized white sweater with no make up on but she still looks gorgeous. "Good morning love" I tell her giving her a hug she holds me tight as I go to pull away and hand her breakfast to her she pulls me back and says "just hold me for a minute." I rub her back as I hold her close and she starts to cry. "Hey look at me" I tell her as I tuck her hair behind her ear. She looks up at me her greyish-blue eyes filled with tears as I caress her cheek I tell her "we will get through this." She nods her head as if agreeing with me. My sister walks in the kitchen with Diesel right behind her. "Here babe you need to eat" I tell Jo handing her plate to her. "Ok" she says and starts to eat as Diesel walks over to her she throws him a piece of bacon and smiles at him as he greedily eats it. "I've prayed all week and have my fingers crossed for today to have good news" Mercy tells us. "Thanks sis" I say giving her a side hug. "Yeah thank you Mercy" Jo says timidly. "No need to thank me at all" Mercy says back. Felix comes walking in the kitchen as he gives Mercy a hug from behind he says to me "good luck today mate." "Thanks bruv" I tell him as I pat his back. "Let's go" Jo says jumping up and throwing her plate in the sink. "Ok love let me grab my keys" I tell her as I run upstairs and get my keys I see Jo's diary. She's been keeping a log of her pregnancy symptoms and writing to help her stress levels. Should I read it? No shit we have to go to the appointment. I quickly head back down and Mercy tells me Jo is outside already. I look at the clock it's only 10am and the Drs isn't that far. "I have to go to the bathroom" I tell Mercy as I run back upstairs I quickly grab Jo's diary skimming over the few entries of her morning sickness and how tired she feels even after sleeping all night. I get to a page that has my name on the top I quickly read Hero my sweet loving man. I don't know what I'd do without you and if I lose our baby I fear the worst. I fear it will tear us apart because I don't think I could live with the guilt that I did something wrong and it killed our baby. I will always love you and I will always cherish our times together. But if I lose the baby I will go back to Australia and we will be nothing but memories. I didn't even realize I was crying until the tears hit the page I quickly wipe my eyes and put the diary back where I got it. Fuck she can't leave me. We won't lose our baby I just know we won't. If we do and I lose her too I will literally die. I head back downstairs and run out the door as I get to the car I see Jo inside the car crying. I jump into the driver seat and grab her hand and say "please don't cry baby girl." "Let's just go" she says wiping her eyes. I start the car and hold her hand as we drive to the Drs office. Unlike last time when we were happy and excited this time we are anxious and scared shitless to find out if our baby is going to be ok or not. We arrive at the Drs office and I go around to get the door for Jo but she has already swung it open and has jumped out of the car. We are silent as I grab her hand and we walk inside to register. The receptionist gives us a big smile as she takes Jo's name down. We sit down and after only a few minutes the door opens and the nurse says "Ms. Langford please." We head to the room and I can't help but have an anxiety attack I try to breathe deep in my nose and out my mouth. Jo looks over at me worried but I squeeze her hand and smile saying "I'm ok we got this love." A knock on the door comes and Jo says "come in." The door opens and Dr. Mara and the nurse I think her name is Basayda or some weird shit like that. "Ok let's get your weight and everything first" the Dr says to Jo as the nurse takes her blood pressure. After all the things were done the Dr. Mara tells Jo "ok love pull your sweater up so we can check this baby out." Jo moves her sweater exposing her tiny bump as the Dr squirts the gel on her and then begins to move the wand around I watch her face but she has a neutral expression as she clicks on the keyboard every now and then. "Is our baby going to be ok?" I ask her. Jo looks at me and squeezes my hand as she nervously bites her lip. "I'll explain everything once I'm done with my measurements" the Dr. informs us. Fuck why can't she just tell us now damn it. Can't she see how stressed and nervous we both are. Especially my girl she has been so stressed lately no matter how much I tried to help her she kept pushing me away and now I know the reason since reading her diary she is preparing to leave me if the news from today is not what we want to hear. And I can't have that happen.