Love Me or Leave Me

Chapter 06 - New Normal

Carla

I know I've live with Samuel for 5 years in the US. But it's been 3 years, now that he's staying at my place, our place, it kinda feels new to me. During that 3 years that we were broken up, I got used to waking up alone, preparing to go to work or just go out with all of my friends then go home and sleep.

Now it's like I have to get used to him all over again. I love the fact that he's here with me right now. So much that I'm afraid to lose him again. I'm afraid to lose Samuel for the 3rd time. It's been a week now since we got back from US. I still find it amusing that I'm here in Madrid, in my own apartment, waking up in a bed next to the man that I love. It maybe cheesy or this may sound as cliché as possible, but Samuel makes it a point to wake up at the same time I do. Just so he can cook me breakfast and drive me to work. Then he picks me up from work but sometimes I insist on just driving myself because I might have to go home late and I don't want him to wait.

I'm not necessarily the type of girlfriend who wants to be clingy, but that's what I become when it comes to him. He just changes me without noticing it myself. I woke up and checked my phone only to see that it's already 6 in the morning. I'm already late to prepare myself for work today. My mind in a sudden state of panic, I pry myself out of Samuel's hug without worrying if I wake him up. Before I could even scoot to the edge of the bed so I could get up, Samuel wakes up and pulls me back on to him and hugged me tightly once again.

Carla: Samuel I'm late it's 6am I'm late for work.

Samuel: No, We're sleeping in today. It's Saturday. You don't have work.

He loosens his arms and I checked on the date on my phone. It is Saturday.

Carla: Sorry. I thought it was still Friday.

Samuel: You know, you should avoid working so late. You're losing track of time, or day at least.

Carla: I'm sorry, it's just that I got so used to distracting myself with work.

Samuel: I know. I did that too and it has it's perks. But it's overworking is not healthy.

Carla: So, what do you want to do today?

Samuel: Can we just stay in and then go to the club with our friends later?

Carla: Sounds like a plan.

I was about to get up when he pulled me back in yet again.

Samuel: uh uh – we're sleeping in.

I cozied up to him and wrapped my arm on his waist and my face on his neck. His arm still wrapped on shoulder and we both slept a few more hours

When we woke up, it was already 11am. So we decided to get something delivered for our lunch. Samuel went to take a shower while I fix up some files in my study. After that I went to the living room scrolling for news in my phone when Samuels' phone lit up showing a message. It's from a girl?

From: Elena

When is your flight back again?

I was lucky enough to read the first message, but it had a follow up message so I could read the next one. And I didn't open his phone. So he really is planning to come back. He's not planning to stay here. So what? After Guzman and Lu's wedding, he's just leaving me here? Or maybe I'm just misinterpreting that message.

Samuel came in the living room and sat beside me with his hair still damp and grabbed his phone. I was trying to peek a little to see what that girl said to him after she asked him when his flight back is. I guess me thinking about this relationship not being a long distance one would last, I thought wrong apparently. It sucks, but he didn't necessarily said he'd be staying long. So I just assumed that he'd be here long term.