Maybe change isn't bad - Payton Moormeier

twelve

I wake up and the girls are still asleep, Payton is asleep on the sofa, I go to the kitchen and try to make as little noise as possible. However it doesn't work and I wake Payton up.

"How are you feeling" I ask as he walks into the kitchen

"My head hurts" he says rubbing his head and leaning against the counter

I go into the cupboard and get him some pain killers and a glass of water. He takes them and I get my toast from the toaster.

"want anything" I ask and he shakes his head.

I go back to my room and finish my breakfast. I get ready for the day and when I come out of my room again Payton is gone and the girls are up. I fill them in on their missing memories of last night. I go back to my room and call Esther.

"Hey bitch" she says answering the call

"Sup whore" I say "you seem different" I say

"I'm completely sober, have been the past couple of days" she says with a smile

"What, no. Never." I say acting shocked and she laughs

"Yeah, I'm going rehab after Christmas so I have just over a month to get my shit together so I can stay" she says

"Good luck" I say "Everyone go drunk last night and it was hella funny" I laugh

"Oh really what happened" she asks

"Well you know the usual dumbass shit. I then wanted to go and Payton refused to let me go alone so he walked me back. He then told me I was cute and that he liked me" I inform her

"You know what they say" she says and I roll my eyes "Drunk words are sober thoughts"

"Yeah well I once drunkly said I would turn gay for you so I dont think they are" I say

"I think he means it, he always talks about you with the biggest smile on his face" she says and I roll my eyes again

"We're just friends and I dont do relationships" I say

"Ok whatever you say" she says

(Time skip - a week)
I've been avoiding Payton all week which has been kinda hard. I wait for the bell to ring so I can go see Samantha. It goes and I walk straight onto her office like usual and I see Payton on the sofa.

"Oh hey um I'll wait outside" I say turning to leave

"No I was just going" he says getting up and leaving

I watch as he leaves and I sit on the sofa. Samantha asks her usual questions and I give my usual answers.

"So are you excited to go home in two weeks" she asks

"Yeah I guess" I say "Honestly I don't know, I want to see everyone but at the same time I'll be their for a week and what if I break"

"Doesn't Payton live close by" she asks and I nod "Then think of him as you safe space if you feel like you can't handle the situation go see him." she says

"Eh I don't know" I say

"Are you ok" she asks "Usually you happily talk about him or what your doing with him over the weekend. What happened"

"Well at the weekend they all got drunk including him and he said some stuff and I don't know how to handle it because I'm not good with feelings and I don't know if it is true and I don't want to hurt him" I rush

"Well all you can do is talk to him, I'm guessing you've been avoiding him" she says and I nod "After the session go talk to him"

The session ends and I go back to my dorm, Jordan and Liam are their but not Payton. I go to my room and put my stuff away. I get my keys and leave with out speaking to anyone and go straight to Paytons dorm. I knock on the door, he answers and let's me in.

"Sorry I've been ignoring you" I say sitting on the sofa

"Its ok" he says

"Can I ask why you were with Samantha" I say and he looks at me

"Because you've been ignoring me and I wanted to know why. She said the whole patient confidentiality thing" he says

"I'm sorry again" I say "Payton did you mean what you said" I ask

"Yeah. You are cute and I do like you" he says "I done expect you to feel the same way or anything, Esther said you not good with feelings and that's fine"

"No I'm not, I never know how I feel. I just don't want to hurt you. I'm a lot to handle" I say

"Well I'm doing fine now aren't I" he says and I nod "Kaden its fine, don't overthink it I just want us to go back to normal" he says

"So do I" I say and he smiles

"So tomorrow where are we having our movie night" he asks

"Here" I say "Lest go to mine now, everyone is their"

We go back to my dorm and everyone's about to leave for dinner. We go to the hall and once I've sat down I steal some of Paytons fries.

"You have your own" he says pointing to my food

"Well yours are better" I say taking another one

"I guess you two are ok now" Liv says

"Yeah" Me and Payton say at the same time.

After the boys go to their dorm and we go to ours. I have a shower and get ready for bed. I sit in bed and watch tv. I'm thinking about Payton and decide to text Esther.

Kaden
I think I like him but I don't know
I don't know how I feel
I haven't felt this before
What do I do

Esther
Wait who
Ohhhh Payton
Tell him
Omg my emotionally unstable friend has feelings awww

Kaden
Not awwww I'm confused and don't know what to do
I'm not telling him
I'll just wait for the feeling to fade

Esther
That's not going to happen
Just give it time you'll figure things out

Kaden
Why are you acting wise I don't like it

We text some more before I decide to go to bed. I can't sleep, I lay in bed still thinking about Payton. I don't want to hurt him, or ruin our friendship or break him but I think I like him.

(Time skip - after school Friday)
I go to my dorm and get some snacks before going over to Paytons. Jordan lets me in and I go to his room. Like always we do homework first then pick some movies.

As I'm watching one of the movies I put my head on his shoulder. Which eventually ends up with me with me head on his chest and him playing with a strand of my hair. I look up at him and smile.

"What you smiling at" he asks smiling back

"Just you" I say "what you smiling at" I ask back

"Just a cutie" he says and I look back at the tv

A/n: bitch guess what.
I'm almost at 1k. How did that even happen