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Chapter Twenty-Two

    "Fuck you!"

    It feels like all time has stopped and no one else is in the room but me and Gilinsky. My hands shake as I break through his personal space. Him cursing at me like that felt so surreal, it only made me want to get closer.

    "Jack, you have to calm down." I know that telling him this won't do shit, but I have to say something. I can't just stare at him in awe without speaking up, "You're drunk."

    "Fuck you." He repeats, but in a lower tone.

    "Marley..." I hear Sammy walk up behind me but I push him away.

    "Leigh is the one you're angry with...not me." I try to remind him. It fails.

    "No! I love Leigh, you're the one I'm mad at! It's your fault we can't work things out!" Jack leans over to grab something else to throw at the wall, but he finds my hand instead.

    "Leigh doesn't love you, Jack..." I want to say that I love him, because maybe I do. But right now all that I'm sure of is that I like him a lot; I don't think that's what he needs to hear right now.

    He takes a couple deep breathes after contemplating the words I've just said. He seems to sober up a little when he looks down at our intertwined hands.

    "I thought she loved me back." His voice makes my heart break but I have to keep myself together for his case.

    "You don't need her, baby - you never did..." I let myself say, "She put all these fantasies inside your head, fantasies she had no intentions on going through with."

    "But..." Jack wants to continue speaking but he can't find the right words to say. All he stammers out are some drunken curses and the sentence, "I don't get it..."

    "I'm sorry that you fell for someone who didn't really care at all about your feelings...you deserve someone so much better than that," I rant.

    When I first got to Omaha I really had no idea how much of an impact Jack was going to have on me, but now I realize how much he's actually changed me. I mean yeah I'm still awkward, and shy, and weird, but right here with him; I feel different. I feel better.

    "You need someone who can show you just as much love as you show them," I continue, "Someone who changes you for the better, not for the worse."

    Jack's big brown eyes find mine and I just can't help it anymore. I let a lose tear fall down my cheek hoping he won't notice. He does, and lifts his hand up to wipe it away.

    "I need you." He breathes. I don't know if it's the booze talking or if that's really how he felt but I nod my head anyway.

    "Okay." I tell him, throwing on a smile, "I'm here..."

    Without a word being said, Jack unlocks our hands and slides them around my waist. I don't feel any nervousness at all. I feel completely at bay as I wrap my arms around his neck and slowly pull his mouth down towards mine.

    Now I know he's drunk, so he probably won't remember this. But I kiss him anyway. I kiss him hard and he kisses me back with just as much force. In this moment I swear to you I'm floating.

    Our lips form together like they were made for each other, and the way his lips move against mine is like riding a really fun roller coaster that you never want to get off of.

    His kiss doesn't taste like beer, it tastes like meaning. And I've fallen in love with the feeling already.

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Okay sorry if this chapter is really short because I'm typing it on my iPod and idk how many words there are so I can't really tell lol but anyway thanks for reading and I really hope you liked it! And yes finally Jack and Marley kiss haha. I don't really know when chapter twenty-three will be up, maybe like tomorrow idk haha but stay tuned! leave any suggestions or advice in the comments! much love, gilinskyshigh