Rising Star: Book 3 of The Orion Series

Can't Take It Anymore

**TRIGGER WARNING** Depiction of an anxiety disorder. Mention of physical abuse. Reader discretion is advised.

One day I awoke

Not knowing where I was

Here's a key, I was told

This man's chest holds the lock

Plunge it in, turn it fast

Is my life more than another's?

Beyond the door I start to see

Angels, oh my, can it be?

A forest of bone trees

There's something wrong here

Headdress slipping down

Necks wrapped in golden halo's

Maelstrom found in the gallows

Eyeing the stalking shadows

Desperate for which I lost

Bitter Hell in my hand

It's coming up quickly

Brimstone drags me to the attic

Angel's blood splattered paint

I have to get out of here

How to leave a place of your own design?

Especially one so immaculate, divine

I didn't mean to kill him

I take it back

Please take me back

To where the cat's not chasing

To where the voices aren't calling

Where claws aren't clawing

Please take me back

I'll never unlock the chest

Please take me back

To where I realized

Nothing is worth this

Please take me back

Take away my fear

Take me back

But you're calling me, dear

Will I be deaf

Take me back

I don't want to be here 

Anymore

--The song Reaction, lyrics by Orion Bauwens

Touring

We, in fact, did buy the damn bus. Saturn Mutants ended up not partaking in serious touring for two years though. It was a mixture of things--we wanted to focus on recording albums; we all were still living at home...

If I'm going to be honest though, we were scared shitless to start touring. It was a big step. And even though we had established ourselves as a serious rock band early on, we still wanted to make a solid name for ourselves before we did any touring.

Before we set out on tour, we had started getting used to life at EMI. It was easy; wake up, eat breakfast, drive myself and Orion to EMI (my parents had begrudgingly lent me the car I had been driving before I got kicked out). Spend the day either working on an album or strategizing with Gloria.