Turning The Page

Sixty Six

"Silas... Dude... Lunch?" Lukas manages to get my attention without needing to touch me, something for which I am grateful because with how caught up I had been just now watching my beautiful Mama sleep the day away from that I probably would have bitten first and said sorry later... I hadn't even noticed when Alic had stopped talking, and I've been waiting for that since before we even woke up today...  

It's so easy to get caught up in my sweet Bean... There aren't many times where I find myself awake while my Addy-Baby is dozing, and just like each and every time before it I found myself sucked in the way that he's so clingy even when he's sleeping... The way he wrinkles his nose when he catches my scent... The little grunts he gives when he needs to shift his weight in my lap... The way he keeps one of his hands under my shirt so he can feel my skin against his skin so that he knows that Daddy's here with him... The way he scent marks me without meaning to, rubbing his face into my chest with such purpose as he keeps himself as close as he can manage while unconscious... And I love how soft his cheek feels when I stroke it with the back of my knuckles... My sweet Mama... 

"Buddy... Why don't we just bring something back for you? Hm? We'll go grab something and bring it back here for both of you, and then you won't have to wake Adrian up?" He has to draw me back out of the depths of wonder that my mate always leaves me in, but Lukas manages to get me out of my head so I can focus on his questions and kindness 

"That would be good, thank you." I try and maneuver for my wallet to give the other Alpha my card, my trust having been given when I noticed him and Harper subtly trying to help me care for Adrian and make this a bit easier on the two of us, my pin not needed in order to swipe it for a meal... Only to have Lukas smile and shake his head as he stops me pointing at Adrian before holding his hands up and mouthing, 'Don't wake him. It's fine.'

And suddenly I have a newfound appreciation for our friends, Lukas seeming to understand that the taste of the air in my universe has changed and that I need as much time as I can manage to get in order to understand and adjust to it... Because I think he's pregnant... He's got to be... He didn't even wake up at the halfway mark to stretch and sneak a quickie in the bathroom as we had planned... He needs rest... And quiet time... And for me to give him as much undivided attention as I possibly can... I know they know that I understand that they get it... Harper has had kids... And from the sound of things, Lukas and Aurie have been trying to have kids... 

They know that right now things are all up in the air for us and they have been kind enough not just to notice, but to be nice enough to actually try and help make things just a tiny bit easier for us... It's easy to appreciate and I think when we finally get to go home I am most definitely going to encourage my precious Mama to keep in contact with our newest friends... Maybe I'll even send a text or two myself... Though I'm sure those texts will be me asking for parenting advice because neither I nor Adrian has very much experience in the way of proper family and neither one of us have exactly had fathers in the picture either... 

It's easy saying goodbye to them knowing that they'll be back because I know they won't be disrupting these special moments anytime soon... They're going to let me sit with my Sweetheart so he can rest like the Angel he is so we can ride out the rest of his mega-heat as gently as possible, his body needs to be tended too much more carefully than what I was letting myself get away with yesterday... But for now, I let him sleep, the two of us rocking back and forth as slowly as I can while I keep my beautiful mate comfortable waiting for the guys to come back with food so I can wake him up... I'm hoping that he'll go down for another nap for the second half of the meeting after lunch, and with a full belly he might be persuaded...

The only issue with that plan though is that it doesn't leave much time for us to sneak away to the bathroom without missing part of the meeting when it resumes after we're done eating and that is only assuming the guys make good time in lunch hour traffic... Not that it would be the most tragic thing in the world to miss out on half an hour of Alic's voice droning on what I think might be another territory discussion? Even though I thought we covered that already... I may not have been paying the closest attention to what was being said at the front of the room after Adrian fell asleep... 

I can't help that I was blessed with the most perfect mate in the world and that soon he'll be bringing the, my children, into this world with his delicate complicated body and I have absolutely no idea how to thank him for it or even if it's appropriate to say thank you for something like making me a Father... Or for loving me as he does... 

I just need to make sure that I'm able to express it with actions... Like protecting him and our children... And loving him back with every fiber of my being just like I have been doing, because he wants a happy family and I'll be damned if anything keeps me from sharing it with him... I want us to be happy... 

After both of us going through so much shit growing up... 

We deserve to finally be happy.