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Question 19

Question 19: If you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? Why?

Kurt got home and found a box addressed to him. When he opened it, there was a card saying – with love from dad and Carole. He smiled at the card and began to go through the contents of the box.

First, he found a scrapbook of photos of him and Finn in High School. Lots of Glee Club presentations. Some domestic photos of when they first moved in together and Carole and Burt forced them to interact. Their first forced smiles of that phase slowly turning into easy, real, smiles of when they really became brothers. The scrapbook was filled with love, love only a mother could have; love from Carole to her two sons. She must have had a few days off the hospital to prepare it for him.

Kurt could feel his eyes filling up with water. He was home alone, there would be no problem if he cried (not that he had a problem with crying in front of Blaine); but the tears never came. He smiled fondly of the memories and went on through the box.

He found several DVDs sorted out by date and a single one written: "Glee Club". Along with them, there was a note in his dad's handwrite saying – Been sorting through some old video tapes. Finally turned them into DVDs and made you a copy. You are the most special thing in my life. I love you. Dad.

Kurt's curiosity git the best of him and he turned on the DVD player to watch some of the videos. He started by the Glee Club one. They videos were funny because although Rachel was singing her heart out as lead soloist, the camera focused on either him or Finn singing harmonies in the background.

He was so enthralled by the videos that he actually got scared when Blaine exclaimed: "You look so cute!" while leaving his bag in a chair on their living room.

"I didn't see you coming in."

Blaine smiled and went on to peck him on the lips:

"You seemed distracted. What are those?"

Kurt showed him the box while answering:

"My dad and Carole sent a trip down memory lane."

"Can I sit down and watch it with you?"

Kurt grinned at him but blushed at the same time:

"Are we already in the seeing-awkward-childhood-films phase?"

Blaine smirked maliciously:

"There are childhood films as well?"

Kurt wanted to hit him with a pillow, but when he looked at Blaine, the latter was enamored looking at teenage Kurt. Kurt hugged the pillow against his chest instead. Blaine exclaimed - oblivious to all of Kurt's movements – eyes fixed on the TV:

"If we had met back then, we definitively would have become a couple much sooner."

Kurt bit his lower lip:

"Who says I'd have fallen for your boyish charms?"

Blaine approached him on the couch, eyes now fixated on Kurt's:

"I wouldn't give up on you."

Blaine's eyes moved to his boyfriend's lips and Kurt closed the distance between them. The films were forgotten for a while as they were preoccupied with reacquainting their mouths. When the need for air was too much, Blaine broke the kiss saying:

"Enough of Rachel singing, I want to see baby Kurt."

Kurt made a fake exasperated gesture:

"My Gaga, you might want to break up with me if you see my baby fat."

Blaine chuckled:

"I'd be a chubby chaser for you, gorgeous."

"I'd also do anything for you." Added Kurt seductively.

Blaine smiled:

"Oh, no, no, no. You are not going to seduce me into not viewing your baby videos."

"Really? I could kiss you right here" Kiss on the neck. "Or here." Kiss below the ear. "Or..."

Blaine kindly pushed his boyfriend away with eyes black with desire:

"Later. I mean, I really want to continue this later. But now, I want to see kid Kurt. Pretty please."

Kurt gave him one last kiss, this time on his pout and went to put on a DVD at random. It was a video of him at age nine, his mother had just passed away and his dad had agreed in attending one of Kurt's tea parties. He was showing his dad how to stick his pinky out to be more fancy and Burt was humoring him. He smiled fondly at the memory. Blaine's voice caught him by surprise once more:

"Your dad is really extraordinary. He'd do anything for you."

"He would. This was a little after my mother's funeral. It was the first time he tried to enter my world."

Blaine had kind eyes turned towards the TV. He pointed out:

"I'd like to meet them both, your parents. And Carole, of course. Do you think you have a video of your mother in there?"

Kurt went to examine the dates in the DVDs and found one of the year he was born. He put it on, and it was a scene at the hospital of his mother holding him for the first time. His dad's voice could be heard behind the camera. They were both grinning and exulting happiness. Baby Kurt yawned in Elizabeth's arms. Blaine 'awed' by his side. The image then turned into Kurt's first bath. Burt trying to help but not very sure how to hold a baby.

"Look, naked Kurt."

Kurt chuckled:

"You've seen me naked plenty of times, silly."

Blaine approached him and passed an arm around his shoulders. Kurt's head leaned to rest on his boyfriend arm. It was all too much: his mother, his brother, the familiarity he had with Blaine. The tears finally came. Blaine looked at him concerned:

"Kurt, do you... do you want to stop these videos?"

"No. I just wish I had more time with my mother and my brother. These videos are making me want to carpe diem, you know..."

A thought was forming in Kurt's head. He stared deep into his boyfriend's eyes:

"Blee, there's something I've been meaning to tell you. These last few months with you were..."

Blaine interrupted him:

"I love you."

Kurt was flabbergasted:

"You stole my line!"

Blaine opened the world's biggest smile. Kurt rewarded him with a kiss. Blaine wanted to go on, but his boyfriend stopped him:

"Wait, I still need to say it!"

"Then say it!"

"I love you, Blaine."

They started kissing again. Blaine stopped them this time:

"You don't know how long these words unsaid have been choking me."

"Choking, you say? We could have a little fun..."

"I'm not into that. But I'm completely on board of us forgetting these films and transferring our fun to the bedroom."