somewhere only we know ══════emily prentiss

13.fix you

                                      13. 𝐟𝐢𝐱 𝐲𝐨𝐮
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  the fluorescent lights of the airport were something emily would never get used to, they gave her migraines and reminded her just how much she wanted to get home, but tonight was different. she didnt want to go to her house tonight, the mere thought of opening the door to her apartment hurt. it felt wrong to be back in london when she knew her friends still needed her, they still wanted her there. it had only been 5 days before that they were all in quite possibly the most horrifying situation they had been in years. worst of all was that even when everything was playing out before her eyes, now after everything was solved— knowing she could of easily couch surfed for months on end, her heart wasn't in virginia. her heart wasn't even in her own apartment and neither was she as she stood in the hall, bags in hand as the door opened.

"emily? what are you doing here?"

"can i come in?" emily asked, already pushing past her

olivia nodded, locking the door behind her. her heart sank seeing the worn out look on the girls face, the usual glimmer in her eye no longer there "are you okay? we haven't spoken since the whole thing-"

"i could really use a hug"

  that was it, that's all it took for her to be crying into olivias shirt within seconds. she didn't care about how she had been in the same clothes for just about 24 hours or the fact that she had probably woken olivia up by coming at 2:10am, she couldn't be alone with her own thoughts tonight. even before she left virginia her mind was here with her, talking to her, breathing with her. it's like she was on autopilot up until 10 minutes ago. usually emily could numb herself until it felt safe to move on but in this moment that sounded even scarier than reliving the feelings. right now all she could think about was how comforting olivia's arms were as emily clutching onto her like she'd vanish at any moment as she was slowly tugged towards the couch.

  it had been 20 minutes and emily wasn't sure if she could produce any more tears, merely just trying to process everything now. neither one of them dared to speak, olivia unclear of what to say and emily unclear of how to say anything at all, so there they laid, hearts beating as one until eventually olivia knew she had to do something, anything to get emily out of her own thoughts.

"i'm gonna get you some water" she carefully slid out front beneath her, quickly replacing the space with a pillow before slipping to the kitchen, grabbing her a water bottle and a granola bar. she came back, squatting down in front of the women laid before her "you gotta get up to drink some, amor". her heart ached seeing emily so broken, so vulnerable yet so cold all at once. olivia gently pushed lose hairs out of her face, resting her hand on her cheek "emily, please look at me" she whispered, scared to speak any louder, and she did. sore, glossy eyes moving to meet olivia's compassionate ones. all she could do was rub her thumb against the others cheek bone and watch her fight back emotions until she sat up, taking the water. olivia sat next to her, watching her slowly calm down enough to form a proper sentence. she rested her chin on the fragile girls shoulder, placing a soft kiss in hopes to reassure her.

"i'm sorry for leaving you". she breathed out, calloused hand reaching out to grab olivia's much softer one. "i'm sorry for not telling you anything. i wanted to call but i couldn't, there was just a lot going on and i was overwhelmed. i was scared" she didn't even know where to begin. how was she to explain that the whole reason she disappeared just after olivia confessed how much emily meant to her was because her best friend had gotten kidnapped, almost killed, and after seeing the way jj's husband reacted all she could think about was olivia being in will's shoes or even worse, jj's. how could she tell her that she had spent 2 days in a shitty hotel because she couldn't get the image of olivia chained up, half dead in a abandoned building out of her mind and she wasn't sure if she could face even being in the same country as her yet— that while the rest of the team was celebrating jj's return emily was cooped up trying not to fall apart at the thought of anyone using olivia against her. not because she cared about saving herself, but because thinking about olivia shedding a tear, especially because of emily, made her want to jump off a cliff.

  how was she to explain that although her hotel was directly in front of a rocky's she couldn't bring herself to go because as much as she hadn't wanted to admit it, olivia had changed her. she didn't go out drinking like she used to, because olivia didn't like bar hopping . she didn't like taking the elevator if it didn't smell like olivia's fancy violet perfume. she didn't even want to eat at rocky's because olivia wasn't there to share a cupcake with her. because it didn't matter how popular the café got, to them, it was their's and it wasn't the same without her. everything she did came with a thought of olivia and for once, she couldn't imagine life without her. she could hardly remember life before her.

  olivia rubbed her back in a attempt to comfort her although she knew it wasn't helping much, if any at all before replying "you don't have to apologize or explain yourself. you're safe and that's all i care about" hand stroking her hair as they found their way back into their laying position, one tangled with the other. eventually she would want to know what happened but for now all she cared about was holding her as tight as she could. she could feel emily's arms wrap themselves around her waist as they held each other, breathing in unison. they laid there until they were both snoring softly in what felt like the best sleep they had ever had.

 
it didn't matter how squished they were on olivia couch, or the fact that emily hadn't even taken off her shoes yet. they were together and that's all they wanted to be.

AN:/
hey guys, i'm so so sorry for not updating in so long :( i've been really struggling and haven't been able to write. this is the last prewritten chapter i have and i'm not sure when the next chapter will be realized.

again, super sorry. thank you all for enjoying this story so much

drink water and sleep well<3