Yellow Hearts|| Yanyan de JesusXJoseph Cuaton

//First Reject//

-Tiktok conversation between Seph and Ian-

(Ian dump acc): Hi..?
10:36pm

josephcuaton_: Hi... Ian
10:40pm

(Ian dump acc): wassup? Musta?

josephcuaton_: I'm good, ikaw?

(Ian dump acc): Yeah, I'm great!

(Ian dump acc): Uhmm..

josephcuaton_: Bat bigla ka nagparamdam? HAHAHA

(Ian dump acc): I'm sorry..

josephcuaton_: Para san? HAHAHA

josephcuaton_: If magsosorry ka dahil sa pagignore saken bigla.. Dahil sa pagblock saken bigla.. Dahil sa pagend ng relationship naten ng wala akong alam... Then don't.. I'm doing well and I don't need your apologies.

(Ian dump acc): Grabe ah..

(Ian dump acc): You changed a lot HAHAHA. Anyare sayo?

josephcuaton_: I moved on. So Ian, go back sa mga ginagawa mo and let's continue to be strangers. After all..

josephcuaton_: We're just friends right?

Tears were threatening to fall as soon as nabasa ko yung message na sinend niya. Di ko inexpect na aabot kami sa ganito.

Was it my fault? Dahil ba yun sa pagpaplano ko ng hindi hindi ko sinasabi sakanya? Well.. Ginawa niya rin naman ah? Tinago niya na alam na ng manager namin yung relationship.

So why am I feeling guilty?

(Ian dump acc): Bat parang kasalanan ko..?

josephcuaton_: Kase ikaw yung may kasalanan! Ian tanga ka ba?

"Ouch.. Haha.. Sorry tanga ako.." I whispered as tears fell from my face, some dropping on my phone.

(Ian dump acc): The last time I checked ginawa ko to para satin. Para walang mapagsabihan dahil secretly may tayo.

josephcuaton_: Tas hindi mo man lang sinabi sakin? Grabe. I thought we were in a relationship where we are open together.

(Ian dump acc): Open? HAHAHA

(Ian dump acc): Di ka nga open eh! Ako magisa mismo nalaman ko nalang na alam na nung manager! Nakita ko kayo pinakinggan ko kayo! Inantay kita na sabihin mo sakin but guess what?

(Ian dump acc): Wala kang sinabi! HAHAHA

(Ian dump acc): Sinubukan kong ayusin ng magisa ko, and dumb me may plano pa. But here we are nagaaway because of your filty attitude.

'Ian stop typing' something in the back of my mind said

(Ian dump acc): It's no wonder na maraming nagsasabi that you just USED ME

'Ian stop!'

(Ian dump acc): Maybe you really just used me?

'Stop'

(Ian dump acc): Baka fake lang lahat noh? HAHAHA fake love? Fan ka na ng BTS? HAHAHA

'Ian stop it!'

josephcuaton_: Wow HAHAHA

josephcuaton_: Andami mong sinabi tungkol sa attitude ko but here you are! HAHAHA

josephcuaton_: Ako? "Filty attitude"? Eh ikaw? HAHAHA

"Great Ian.. Just.. Great." sabi ko realising what I have done.

(Ian dump acc): I'm sorry.. Nainis lang ako and.. Please di ko kaya yung ganto.. Seph comeback please. I did everything para satin.

josephcuaton_: No. That's enough. Tama na.

josephcuaton_: If ganyan iniisip mo tungkol sakin the you have no right to tell me to "comeback"

josephcuaton_: Yes I hid the fact na nalaman yung relationship naten. Pero ginawa ko yun kase ayaw kong masaktan ka.

At this point I was harshly sobbing through the sheets and wetting the fabric.

josephcuaton_: Let's just stop this officially okay? Tama na.

(Ian dump acc): Come on Seph! Pagusapan natin to! Kahit ngayon lang please?

josephcuaton_: Ano paguusapan naten? Ian if you want 'us' to be together again.. Well I can't..

(Ian dump acc): So what you're rejecting me?

josephcuaton_: Yes!

(Ian dump acc): No! Please Seph..

josephcuaton_: Ian tama na ano ba?

(Ian dump acc): Don't you love me anymore?

josephcuaton_: I do.. Pero I don't think na.. I can just go back pagkatapos ng two months na di ka nagparamdam sakin

(Ian dump acc): I'm sorry..

josephcuaton_: Don't be.. Goodbye..

//josephcuaton_ blocked you!//

(Ian dump acc): I'm sorry
-message not sent-

(Ian dump acc): It's my fault right? HAHAHA
-message not sent-

(Ian dump acc): Sana hinayaan ko nalang noh? HAHAHAHAHAHA
-message not sent-

(Ian dump acc): I'm a failure aren't I? I wish you had a better boyfriend/girlfriend than me:)
-message not sent-

(Ian dump acc): I'm sorry for butting in sa buhay mo HAHA
-message not sent-

(Ian dump acc): Oh look at the time!
-message not sent-

(Ian dump acc): 11:11 I wish you never met me so you can be happier in life:)
-message not sent-

(Ian dump acc): I love you:)

//you are blocked from sending messages to this account//

I sighed as I put my phone down. I was hoping na, kahit naka block ako I would be able to send a few more messages. That if ever iunblock niya ko mabasa niya.

About how much I loved spending time with him at ginawa ko to dahil ayokong mawala siya. Maybe I should have just stayed quiet.

"Good night Seph haha. I love you. Malaya na tayo haha"