fix you

a blurry memory

Lisa sighed and opened the door so he would stop ringing the doorbell. 

"Guk-" 

She stopped dead. It wasn't Jungkook. Bambam's close friend Yugyeom stood in front of her, smiling at her. She returned the smile, flustered.

"Can I come in for a moment? I have something to talk to you about, noona."

...

  "...so she's been avoiding me for more than a month by now. I don't know what to do."

Bambam scoffed from the other line. He was in a phone call with Jungkook, who was panicking because Lisa had been ignoring him.

"So let's go over this," he drawled lazily. "You've been getting wasted and fucking god knows how many girls for so long out of denial of your feelings for Priya. Then you finally realize but keep hooking up because you're scared she won't take you. Then you finally get the guts to talk to her and invite her over to your place, even though you know she knows of your daily flings. Then you kiss her, and she randomly gets up and runs out of the apartment?"

"Exactly. What do you think I did wrong?"

BamBam resisted the urge of going to his friend's apartment to give him a good old punch in the face. He could be really clueless at times.

"The problem is, Jungkook, you've been acting like a complete jackass towards her."

"Huh?"

"Figure it out."

"I've always treated her the best I can. I've taken care of her, cooked for her, bought her all these ridiculous stuffed animals-"

"Yeah, and through all this, have you tried really talking to her?"

Jungkook went silent.

"Imagine if you and Lisa switched roles, Jungkook. Imagine what it would feel like if she treated you like her goddamn boyfriend when you were together but hooked up every night with some other dude. Imagine watching her with someone else at the club. How would you feel?"

"I would-" Jungkook rubbed his head, a sudden flash of blurry memories passing by him. "What do you mean, at the club?"

"So you really don't remember?"

"Shit, my head hurts...Bam, what did I do?"

"Let's see...she saw one of those strippers all over you and looked away, but then you had to go up to her and start kissing her. I don't know what you told her but she pushed you towards the other girl and left in a rush."

Suddenly, the memories became clearer for Jeongguk. Tracing her lips, Lisa telling him to stop, burying his head in her neck, telling her...

"I love you, Lili. Why can't you love me back?"

A tear ran down Lisa's cheek.

"How can you say you love me when you bring home a different girl every night?"

"I love you..."

"I-"

She pushed him away. 

"Go. Just go."

Jungkook sighed and ran a hand through his hair.

"I fucked up, didn't I?"

"Yup."