THE ONLY J (Author's Reco)

Part 5 | Locker Romance

LISA

Was I dreaming? Was that real? Jennie Kim wants to have lunch with me in my office. How brave she is to approach me earlier in my furious state. I think she still know me well.

I came back thinking of what happened in the conference room earlier. Since college, I treated him as my brother. I helped him in every way on his studies for him to be able to pass our subjects and be able to graduate. I appointed him as my Finance Head because of the brotherly love I have for him and he is my best friend even if he is not qualified for the job. I just can't believe him. I sacrificed my own happiness for him but he chose to steal something from me. Again.

I am now laughing at myself for not even pursuing Jennie back in college because Kai confessed to me that he liked her, and I knew he can give beautiful flowers and bring Jennie to movies because he is rich, I backed off. Honestly, I already thought of courting Jennie since high school, but I had no confidence. What if I can't make her happy? I know Jennie is not really into material things, but I want what's best for her. And I think, that was not yet the right time for me to be with Jennie. I am so deeply in love with her and at a young age, I was already thinking of her to be my wife someday.

Another thing, I am an intersex and I didn't want people to talk behind her back and hurt her because of my condition. I was already bullied in school because of my dick. Not to brag, but the reason I was bullied mostly by the boys because some girls at school sends me love letters and asked me for dates. I never replied to any of those. Never went out on a date since then actually.

Because of........

"Jennie!" I screamed her name when I got surprised by her presence in front of me. I was surely in state of thinking deeply when she entered my office.

"Stop thinking of something that's bothering you Lalisa and let's eat Uncle Marco's recipe! Oh god you have no idea how I missed his kimchi fried rice. I am so happy that you put your father's specialty into a big business." She is obviously excited to taste it again. Wait. She knew?

But wait, why is my heart beating so fast. Ugh. Cliché. But fck.

"That's all I can do for him, Jen." I replied. I can see her smile. I hope this woman is proud of me.

She handed me my spoon and fork, took a glass of water for me and prepared my food.

"Jen, you don't have to do this okay? You're supposed to do your own thing." I said to her while staring at those feline eyes.

"Lalisa, I have a story to tell." Jennie stares at me directly. God I swear, angels can put me inside a freezer right now but I would still be melting for sure.

"Even if Kim Jong-in turned out to be the worst friend we ever had, I am still thankful to him. You know, he made me realize a lot of things." Her cute dumpling cheeks goes up and down while she talks in her mouth full of food.

"Hmmm. Like?" I asked as if I didn't care, but yeah, I asked.

"When I first tasted the kimchi fried rice someone left in my locker back in college, I told myself to kiss the person who kept bringing me this food until we catch our breaths. Don't you know I was expecting a container of it every time I open my locker? That person really knew how to make me happy in a simple way. Unlike Kai. He kept on spoiling me of expensive stuff I didn't need. Buying me dark chocolates when what I want in life is a white milk chocolate for just 5 cents. He kept giving me flowers when I'm obviously allergic to it.  Sorry I don't want to bring him up. I was just carried away of how much I miss that person who kept feeding me with kimchi fried rice and leaving some paper roses in my locker." While Jennie was telling me this, there's a part of me wanting to go to my office's terrace to take a deep breath and light a stick of cigarette.

The kimchi fried rice. Cheap white chocolates. Paper roses. Did she find out it was me?

"Thank you for making me special back in our younger days, Lalisa." She said sincerely.

She knew. Confirmed.

I didn't respond or even show a single emotion with what I have just heard. I actually do not know what to say. All I know is, my heartbeat is as loud as an asteroid crashing on earth.

Jennie Kim, I can't breathe. But I want to kiss you right now.