Dear Sushant Singh Rajput

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🚨Disclaimer🚨:The Author feels sad for the beautiful person we all have lost. It is meant to be read with an open strong heart & in no way it should affect your daily life. If it does so in anyway, or readers start feeling negative please don't read further.

The Author (I.e. Me, can't believe I am calling myself Author) wishes to relieve the sorrow feelings at times & asks the readers to contribute their comments of how they feel.

Readers are most welcome to put up their views!!😊

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Dear Sushant Singh Rajput

At first when the news broke I was terribly hurt. It might seem strange for someone who doesn't even follow you but that much of a stage presence you had. You were mesmerizing. There's no doubt about that. 

Tears came randomly, & I felt so glum. There was such a hush up the first month that I felt maybe I could move on. It felt wrong & a lil odd that you would take such a drastic step. But I managed.

Feeling & since I didn't know you at all, that maybe the stardom was too much, maybe the industry was too much, maybe financial expenditures to maintain your lifestyle was skyrocketing & wasn't enough, maybe there was a financial debt that you couldn't pay off,maybe & maybe you were entangled with the underworld gangs which works hand in glove with this Bollywood industry & weren't able to extract yourself from their hands.

I had so many reasons to convince myself that it isn't normal but it happened because you were trapped & felt there was no way out.

My heart heaved & always does when I saw you father struggling to get out of the car for his sons last rites. It was such a heartbreaking moment. I could only & only imagine.

Because you & I we are worlds apart. We weren't crossing each others world anytime soon.

The only time I saw you was on those big screens. On the handheld device that I carry everywhere.

Its weird. Absolutely weird. How suddenly things happened. 

Last year when the news of you was at an all time low, & there was some passing news here & there, even some reports you stopped attending parties, or you were with your gf, I couldn't help but think that Kriti Sanon was way better than the thing you call gf.

You & only you. That I have gone through so many emotions all at once. First I was very sad, then I actually became angry.

I couldn't help but lash at you. Saying if you had such a brilliant mind & knew how to achieve goals why o why couldn't you go to some Stanford University with your like minded peers?

Why couldn't you discuss your love & passion for varied subjects from astronomy to artificial intelligence be used at a better place, at a better institution? Instead of discussing with those who didn't even understand,dont want to hear & want to listen to you.

Why did you have to stoop your intelligence level to someone who would call you depressed after your demise?Who didn't have the passions you did, who haven't even passed their college properly, who were more interested in parties & drugs than anything.

Why did you have to bow your head, when you could have shined somewhere else much better & most importantly been alive & smiling today?

Of course things would have been different.

Of course I wouldn't have known you at all then I know some part of you today.

Of course your acting wouldn't have graced the screen theatres where millions know you today & remember you fondly.

Of course people wouldn't have been shedding tears & those who were really close to you confess that you were different, brighter than a star, always there to someone in need,fiercely protective of the ones you call your own.

Things could have been so much different. I haven't even crossed my path against you, neither I  am a self confessed fan. And yet I feel really mournful.

I refuse.

I refuse to accept that you are truly gone.

I refuse to accept that this is the fate that you are dealt with.

I refuse to accept that there's no moral police, that your actions didn't amount to anything.

My faith is being restored slowly. Funny isn't it?

I once again believe in God & the Universe again. 

I believe you are watching from somewhere above.

And this is not just me speaking.

The amazing part is even before your investigation started, paranormal investigators have already revealed the truth. Of what truly transpired. And the fact remains that in one way or another it is coming out to be true.

You are a Star.

And I mean it.

In every sense of the word. 

My life has changed & you are the one to be credited with.

In every irrevocable sense.