Don't give Up

I rather die

Eliana's POV

Today I had to go to school because my mother let me. I packed away my things and went into my toilet. I took a shower and I looked myself in the mirror and I looked so pale yet so week.

I got dressed in my oversized hoodie and my boyfriend jeans after that I put concealer on my face and my hand. I don't want anyone to notice. I put on my adidas and came out of the room with my bag and my phone.

I sat at the island in the kitchen and ate my toast I had made earlier. "Hey babe are you okay"? Lili asked coming into the kitchen.

"Yeah I'm good what about you"? I asked biting unto my toast. "I'm good as always. I have a photoshoot today. How do I look"?

She asked turning around. She had on a cute over sized top the same that Ariana Grande wears and a black high heel boots.

"You look great. The pictures in that is going to look great". I told her while putting my plate in the sink and then washed it.

"This is not the fit I'm taking the pictures in they have it, I just have to look gorgeous as always". She said going into the fridge and taking out her fruit bowl.

"So your not coming to school"?I asked."Nah not today"."Your lucky,well I'll see you later.I don't want t be late for school".

"Bye nerd".She said and I laughed and walked out the house with my stuff.I'm so weak.If I told my mother what was up she won't let me g but I don't want her to treat me like a cancer patient anymore even though I am.

I drove to school and parked my car when I came out of the car I locked my door and when I looked up everyone was looking at me. "Bet girl is back". Someone yelled and a few others laughed.

I just walked into the school and walked by my locker. I waited for Sam to come. There were alot of prom posters up and poster saying to vote for Anaya.

After a few minuets of people watching me teasing me and I firing back she came.

"Thank god you came, I don't know what I'll do without you". She said and hugged me. "Of course it will be boring".

I rest my head on my locker trying to keep ,myself from falling. 

"Good morning Babe".Liam came up to Sam. "Good morning Babe". Sam said and then he looked at me and nod.

I did the same and looked away. After the left together because she had something to tell him. Leaving me hear alone. I opened my locker and rest my head in.

"Zach's here Oh My gush"! A girl squealed which made me angry why does he have to be here. I looked up and I saw him with his around a girl she looks new. She kissed him on his lips and he kissed back He looked at me and then I looked away.

I walked into an empty classroom and cried. My is he here with here, He moved on so quickly. It just proves my point of him not caring about me. I wiped my eyes and walked into my class with my stuff.

It sucks cause we are in the same class and he sits next to me. Students came in and he came in with the girl. I looked away and took out my books. He sat next to me and the other girl was next to him.

I rolled my eyes at him. I looked up as the teacher walked in.

"Okay class today we will be studying the anatomy of a rat". He said and I almost gagged. I hate rats, who doesn't.

I heard a chuckle next to me and I rolled my eyes. "You will be in groups, Today I'm giving you the choice of grouping up with anyone of your choice".

"Babe your with me". The girl said and I got up and walked over to mike. "Can we be partners"? I asked and he nod with a smile.

"I'd love that". He said and I took a seat next him.

"You look beautiful". "Thank you". I gave him a smile. "I have t buy my dress today for prom are coming with me". A girl asked her friend.

After my classes I went to the cafeteria with Sam and we sat together and ate our lunch. "Prom is tomorrow are you ready"? She asked.

"I guess so". I said and sighed. "Don't worry we will have the time of our life, you'll see". She budged my shoulder playfully.

I looked around looking for him I don't know why. I spot him by his seat and she was siting on him and he was making out with her.

I clenched my heart it really hurts to see someone you love move on.He looked at me and I looked away.

"Sam I'm not feeling well, I should go home". I told her and she looked really worried. "You sure, do need me to drop you"?

"No it's okay I'll see you tomorrow". I got up looking at him, him looking back at me and I walked away.

I couldn't bare to see more of this. It hurt it really hurts. I'm really happy I'm dying. I know It's wrong but I rather be dead than see him with another girl knowing he never cared two fucks about me.

I Knocked n the principle's office and wait for him to tell me to come in. "Come in". I opened the door and told him that I'd like to go home, That I'm not feeling well.

"Okay I'll call your mother". He said taking out his phone. "No, I'll take myself home". "Are you sure"? "Yes I am ".I said and I walked out of his office and I walked out of the school and got into my car driving home.

He knows my condition. That's why he didn't ask me why.

When I got home I went I to my house and ran up to my room nd locked the door letting out my tears. I know it's been some weeks since the incident but I still am hurt with it.

I locked my door and sat with my back against the door. Letting out all my tears I don't care how loud I was, No one was there. I looked up and I saw the teddy that he gave me and the tears flowed more.

I got up and took up the teddy and went downstairs and threw it into the trash and then went back into my room and got some rest.

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