First of all, I wanted to sincerely apologize for making you guys wait for more than a month, 2 months, I can't even remember the last time when I posted an update. Isolation affected me in ways that heightened the existing mental issues I had way before quarantine started that just emerged through the surface. I had to prioritize my mental health above most of all things. I've lost interest in things I used to love to do and I've been struggling in dealing with my mental health, I know I hadn't been healthy in handling it enough, blocking my thoughts and eventually letting it bottle up in me that it was overwhelming, too much that I let it consume me. I lost my passion along with the process of unhealthy dealing with my mental health, with my anxiety taking me down with it. But now, I am finally getting my way back to sanity, as what I love to call it. I just had to hold on to something just to keep me going. All the things that used to give color to my life that I lost along the process that was dragged onto the grey part of my life, I started to finally pay attention back to them... and here I am finally taking time to sit in front of the computer and started writing again. It took me a long time in trying again, and now I'm back at it again. I found myself a job that doesn't give my mind enough time to linger onto the negative thoughts that keep lurking in the dark at times of my self-isolation. I've found ways to cope up with my anxiety in a healthy way. I've shared my darkest thoughts to a person who was going through a similar thing and it just feels warm and kind of free to know that someone understands you in ways that you can't even understand about yourself, your mind. I won't take this long, I apologize for the long wait. I will try to update once a week and I won't let you down again. Jade and Jared won't stop here just because I'm dealing with something that goes on inside my head. Jade and Jared are my leverage into sanity and I won't let them out of my grasp again.
P.s, I'll post an update right after this.
-Zin
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FanfictionAlison Jade Jorgensen had it all - wealth, beauty, and the adoration of those around her. At eighteen, she was the epitome of privilege, shielded from the harsh realities of life by her affluent family. But when her beloved grandfather passes away j...
