Leather Jacket Girl (girlxgirl)

Chapter Fifty-Three

As much as I didn't want to go to school, I was relieved to be there because it meant I had something to occupy my time. I had something to do rather than spend the day worrying about what was going to happen between Courtney and me. Class was already long enough but it was even more painful when Courtney was sitting so close by to me and wouldn't even say a word to me. 

I decided to keep my head down and tried to get on with as much work as I could manage. Although I was hurting, I couldn't let that affect my grade. I wanted to do well in school and I was going to, no matter what. 

After class had ended, I was relieved that I was able to go and find someone that I believe actually wanted to talk to me. 

I found Oliver in the cafeteria and wandered over to sit down next to him. I knew that regardless of what was going on in my life, I would always have Oliver there to depend upon. He really was a great friend. The sun shone in through the window and brought out the slightly reddish tints in his slightly disheveled hair. 

It was a beautiful day, in all honesty, I decided that it would probably be a good day to go for a walk, if I didn't feel as though the weight of my emotions was rooting me in place. 

"You can't let her get you down, Phoebs. I know that you and Courtney aren't exactly on talking terms right now...but I'm going to talk to her about it because the way she is treating you isn't right," Oliver said. 

"Oliver, I appreciate it but I really don't need someone stirring this dreadful soup up," I replied. 

Oliver sighed but gave a reluctant nod of his head. 

"I invented something," he told me. 

I smiled at that statement. If any of my friends were good at coming up with new concepts, then it was ultimately him.  

"What did you invent?" I asked him. 

"Alright. Hold on a minute. I'm about to just...shock you, astonish you. You know how the school does those chicken burgers, right?" he asked me. 

I nodded. 

"Well, look," he said, as he pulled out some Nando's sauce from his backpack. 

"Are you even allowed to bring that to school?" I asked, as I felt a smirk of amusement develop upon my face. 

"Duh," Kian added, as he sat down near the two of us, "I taught him everything that he's ever needed to know." 

Kian was a pretty resourceful person, so that didn't surprise me in the slightest. 

"You get one of the chicken burgers. Oh look-" Oliver said, as he took the burger that Kian was holding out of his hands, "-chicken burger. Then, you get some sauce on there, as much as you want." 

"You're literally going to set your mouth on fire," Kian said, as he looked at his friend with an expression of amusement. 

"It'll be worth it," Oliver replied. Oliver didn't care. He took risks. He wasn't afraid to put three times the recommended serving size of sauce onto his burger and I admired him for that! 

While I felt tempted to laugh as Oliver's eyes seemed to enlarge to be three times bigger, I was soon distracted by the fact that Emmy and Elijah had entered the cafeteria. I let the boys know that I was going to speak to them and then got up from my seat. 

"Obviously, I'm going to be spending most of this weekend studying," I heard Emmy say, as I approached the two of them. 

"Me too. We need to do well in school. What we don't need is for you to be wrapped up in gay drama," Elijah said. 

"Like me, you mean?" I chimed in. 

The two of them looked towards me with slightly surprised expressions, before they became vastly more apologetic. I figured that Emmy had told Elijah all about my situation with Courtney by now. 

"Hey, Phoebe. It's a beautiful day. Do you want to take a walk outside? We can just talk," Emmy suggested. 

Without really thinking about it, I simply nodded my head in agreement. 

The two of us said our farewells to Elijah and then made our way out of the cafeteria into the main school grounds. 

It was a clear day, I was hoping that it would be a clear evening, too. I wanted to see the stars. They often made me feel at least a little better, when in doubt, I knew that I could look at the stars and remind myself that this was so much bigger than me. All of this. There was more to life than worrying about the relationship between Courtney and I. That didn't change much, though. She was always going to mean so much to me, even if she didn't want to talk to me currently. 

"She might never talk to me again," I blurted. 

Emmy looked towards me and it didn't take her long to catch on to what I meant by that. Her eyebrows crinkled together slightly in her concern. 

"Let's approach this calmly, Phoebe. I know you're upset but Courtney can't stop talking to you forever. She likes you. She will always like you, Phoebe," Emmy said. 

"Are you sure about that?" I asked Emmy. 

"Trust me. I've spoken to Lois about this and Courtney hasn't had feelings for anyone since her. It's been a while. You're one of the greatest people for her, in Lois' opinion. You are always there for her and even if she tries to push you away, you have this determination to try to get through to her. I admire that about you, Phoebe," Emmy told me. 

It was when she said things like this that I remembered how much I loved Emmy, as my best friend. I was glad that the two of us were on good terms again. 

"Thank you, Emmy," I said. 

"So, just don't give up on her, okay?" Emmy asked. 

I nodded in agreement. 

I wouldn't be able to give up on Courtney, even if I tried.