Hated- Really?? (Book 2)

Part 29

Apart from new changes in her life, her chit chats with Rudra was also not relaxing. Shanaya had informed him about her encounter with Panjel on terrace and how she knew about them. He was furious to say the least. He was blaming her for being careless, for being someone who couldn't control her emotions or handle a situation.

Shanaya didn't understand how it was her fault.

How many of people could control their emotion if they were being asked, no, not asked but confronted for their deepest secrets out of no where?

There were no signs of such confrontation.

She tried to make him understand that maybe Panjel was harmless considering the fact that she never said a word in past three years when she had opportunities to. But this had only aggravated him more.

As if her changed life with daily chores wasn't sufficient, he too was not helping. She couldn't figure out how to balance all of these.

She was sitting near window in her new house, feeling fresh air. If only her mind was this fresh.. She recalled the day when she had cleaned the bathroom and toilet for the first time. She felt like vomiting and couldn't eat a single bite that day.

Most of the times Panjel and Betty were in some whispered talks that will make her odd one out.

She was never too close to anyone else the way she was with Rudra. All of a sudden everything became too much to bear. She didn't want to cry but her mind was so clouded that she couldn't find a way out. It was like she was tied with multiple ropes and couldn't even figure out which rope tied what part or from where she should start to unwind. She wondered if other people ever felt this way. Probably not or maybe...

She closed her eyes and inhaled deeply, and then exhaled. She repeated it for some more times.

She tried smiling and getting some positive thoughts. But her mind didn't work. She sighed and surrendered herself to the view.

It was better to enjoy the fresh air and the relaxing view in front of her that she had missed completely due to her worries. She loved nature. And she realised that she will go through it. This wasn't going to be a hurdle for long. Along with these, she realized another thing, that she could handle mental problems far better than physical problems. But then she never had such physical pain. Oh of course it was there. The reason why she was still virgin.

And the thought somehow made her smile. She recalled how they tried and failed and how she have kicked Rudra a few times. That time she would cry and feel bad but imagining those things now made her laugh.

Shanaya and Panjel had managed themselves to get admitted to a local University and that was also quite dramatic. They had never lied like that. Yes, Panjel had decided to pursue Biology instead of Business management and Shanaya was very happy as she wouldn't be alone anymore.

And also, for the first time in their life, they realized that they appear similar in their looks to other people. In this University, almost everyone asked them if they were cousins or sisters. And they had finally taken advantage of it to get admitted and it worked on the Dean of the university.

Everyone was happy. What could go wrong now? They had established a huge task on their own.

But that was the thing. Shanaya's life was never easy. Yes they got admitted but they had also enrolled themselves for discrepancies and partiality. A couple of Lecturers and professors were openly showing their dislike towards Shanaya. Her simple nature, dressing, smile, everything was taken as a sign of attitude, high profile show off and god know what else.

One day when Shanaya was not keeping well and had to miss classes, one of the professors whom she respected a lot, clearly commented in front of everyone
"of course, why do you need to attend classes when your father is getting paid inhigh figures. People from your status and society need not even take the pain to show their faces in the classrooms. You can just sit, eat lavish food and wear expensive clothes and roam around."

Though Shanaya had managed to smile, this comment had hurt her a lot. She felt a hand on her own. It was Panjel. Other students also threw her looks of sympathy at her but no one said anything. They all were aware of how much of hard work both of them were doing. For most localites, their mom would cook and serve. They just had to study but for Shanaya and Panjel, from breakfast to Dinner, dusting and cleaning to washing clothes and every other household chores, they only had to do it. They had to manage house chores and study both. Most of the lecturers were also aware of this. But some of them had decided to go hard on Shanaya.

There was another lecturer who will purposefully mark her absent irrespective of her presence. Shanaya wondered why it was happening to her. Even Panjel was an outsider but still, she was the one on radar. Not that Shanaya was too talkative or anything else, but she still could not figure out.

As if university life was not sufficient trouble, even Betty had started showing her true colors.

She had started looking into Shanaya's  personal belongings in her absence. One day Shanaya found her locker opened and her personal diary was peeping out. It was weird feeling for her but she thought that she herself might have been careless since she could not find any reason to blame anyone. And she would have never thought that someone else would do something like this. With so many things happening at a time, she had started ignoring many things and focus mainly on her studies.

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Hello my lovely readers,

Sorry for this late update. But with this corona thing, work and household chores have become endless.

I hope all of you are safe and doing great.

Love you all. Take care everyone. 😘