A Seam Within the Galaxy • Kylo Ren

Ch.6

"The damn kid shot just above my head! Nowhere near his target; he nearly killed me and everyone surrounding him! He's a menace!" Kaz exclaimed, raising her drink in the air and spilling some of the contents onto the table. I gripped my stomach with laughter, slamming my other hand on the table a few times in defeat as I exhaled all of the air from my lungs.

"Surely he wasn't as bad as your first time on Akiva, was he?" I challenged, taking a drink from my cup and raising my eyebrows at her. Her eyes intensified and she let out a groan, banging her head against the table lightly. I hushed her amongst my giggles, surveying the room to see a few heads turn toward us.

"Marrrr, I thought you had forgotten about that one." she bellowed, head rising from the table. I snickered and ate the snacks on the table, not wanting to press on and embarrass her any further. I sat smiling in my seat as Kaz continued laughing to herself, popping a few crackers into her mouth. My body buzzed happily after a few drinks, significantly nulling any of my aches and pains. My mind felt surprisingly within my control, calm even.

The occasional thought of him had popped into my mind often, I found myself lingering on the idea of him too often as Kaz continued on with her storytelling. Similar to how I've recently been stuck in my own flurry of thoughts, I also found myself stuck on him while I was intoxicated. Whatever barrier I put up to block the idea of him from my mind can be worn down by a couple drinks, apparently.

Being inebriated surely did not help the side of me that knew thinking too much was wrong, and could result in facing whatever consequences he deemed fit. Luckily during my night out with Kaz, as long as Kaz kept the drinks coming, I could silence that worrying side of me. I often felt worried of what he would do if I bugged him any further with my incessant thoughts, ' filling my mind with nonsense', as he had once mentioned. I rather liked how these feelings vanished once I had established a good buzz. The thought of the Commander was so inviting and sinful. It felt good to go against his wishes, even if I had to find liquid courage in order to do so.

I noticed the more I drank the more I was able to let my guard down, too blissed-out to care if I spent too much of my bandwidth on this man, I was tired of treading lightly in fear of him.

My mind came soaring back down to the booth we were in once Kaz had begun to snap her fingers deliberately in front of my eyes.

"Margot, Margot, do you copy?" she cackled. I blinked a few times, rubbing my eyes and nodding.

"Yes ma'am!" I rang. I took another sip of my drink, stronger than the last, and feeling my eyes start to fall weak. I shook it off, sucking on an ice cube to stimulate me and keep me from dozing off. I swirled my red drink with my straw, watching it bubble and fizz below the leafy garnishes on the surface, looking similar to the twinkling stars and distant planets surrounding us.

" Anyone on your mind?" she probed, eyes locked on me. I shook my head rapidly, earning a few laughs from her. "Give it up! There is nothing to tell, honestly." I begged, clasping my hands together. She shook her head.

"I will need to know sometime, it's awfully rude of you to keep secrets about someone from me!" she vowed. I let my neck go limp, rolling my head around my shoulders and watching everything slow down around me, much slower than real time. Gods, I was really drunk.

"There is nothing to say, I'm begging you to drop it. I do not feel good about anyone, nor does anyone fancy me." I declared, finishing my drink. I knew I had a few drinks, but I felt much further gone than I usually did, I am no veteran, but I am no rookie.

"You cannot just say that nobody fancies you, Mar." she commented, grasping one of my hands within her own.

I stared at our hands, feeling my mouth gape open slightly. Her hands were cold, it felt like she was cooling my whole body down with her simple touch. I blinked a few times to try and remedy how lagged my vision was.