Please don't leave

Chapter 1.

I ran in to the room that Derek had called from. There laid Emily, with a piece of wood sticking in her torso. He was yelling to keep her conscious.

I was stunned. I was watching my partner bleed out. I could feel a burning sensation rise. My words and screams choked me. Only a small wimper could go out first.

Before I could make any movement, the paramedics rushed in. I was about to run forward, until Hotch wrapped his arms around my waist holding me back. Soon I was screaming her name.

They carried her out and straight into the ambulance. They let JJ ride with her instead of me. Which made my blood boil, but I didn't have time to be mad.

My vision was flooding, making it impossible to drive myself. So instead I drove with Derek and Hotch. Sitting in the back, curled up and quietly crying.

Making it to the hospital, we were only allowed in the visitors lounge. Everyone was on edge though. I wanted to be by her once she was out of surgery and recovering. Like the strong Emily I knew.

It wasn't until JJ came out, dragging the attention to herself. Her eyes filling with tears of her own. I heard Pen whisper a soft 'no' when she saw her. "She never made it off the table."

It was silent. Nobody believing the words JJ spoke. Hell! I couldn't believe the words, and never would. I got up, wanting to leave, but was stopped by JJ standing in the way, and Derek holding me back.

More and more tears spilled. Soon becoming uncontrollable. Everyone engulfed me into a hug, comforting each other as well. 

The world had stopped spinning for the team. Time had stopped moving for the team. Everything stopped for the team.

They pulled off, deciding we should head back home for the night, but with a partner. Hotch and Ashley were the only two that didn't get partners. JJ and Reid, Derek and Penelope, then Rossi and I.

Besides Emily, Rossi was one of the closer people on the team to me (the other being Hotch, JJ, and Penny). He was like a dad figure. The one I never really had. He knew what to say in the right moment. Hotch drove us back to the office to grab our bags. Then Rossi drove me back to his house.

I was quiet the entire night from the moment I saw her laying on the floor. What do you say after you learn your best friend died? Especially when you were there watching her?

Rossi tried to get me to talk, but it wasn't any luck. I could barely breathe because of the crying I've been doing. The moment we got to his house, I ran straight into the guest room. Letting out hard sobs. Muffling them into a pillow.

A hand rubbed circles onto my back. I roll over to see Rossi wearing a sympathetic smile. I sat up and hugged him tightly. Crying even harder into his shoulder.

Minutes that felt like hours pass. I pretend to fall asleep on his shoulder, still having tears fall. I didn't want to keep him up all night trying to soothe me.

The moment I knew he was out the room, I opened my eyes and laid on my back. Letting tears fall past my temples. It felt like the world was falling apart on me.

The worse part was having to show up at the funeral tomorrow. They wanted to bury her fast so we could continue on. I don't know how they can bury her so fast.

The minutes I spent letting tears roll down, turned out to be hours. Sunlight started to seep through the window. Lighting the room nicely.

I rolled out of the bed to my feet. Standing up only reminded me that I was crying all night. Dehydration caught up fast. Dizziness following with. I felt my legs start to give out.