bestfriends

chapter 43

didn't proof read this one either because i've been hella sleepy all day 😐

"i just wanna talk"

"josh wtf is he doing here" i say picking my water bottle up

"who's this" mattia ask coming from behind

"pretty sure it's my dad" i say sighing

"y/n let him explain" nathan says

"yea cause ima let you explain why you left my mom to raise 3 kids by her self and once she dies you wanna show up" i say

"uh we'll head upstairs" mattia says as ale and kairi follow him upstairs

we all sit down and the couch but i remember what josh and taylor did so i got up quickly

"y/n really" josh says

"what i'm just making sure i'm clean"

"dude it's clean" he replies

nathan and my dad look at us confused

"it's nothing, now are you gonna explain" i ask crossing my arms

"i wanted to be apart of your life's, i did" he says "but i couldn't be with your mother anymore"

"so you left us, your kids, because you didn't wanna be with mom anymore" i say

"i didn't leave y/n" he says "she wouldn't let me see you guys"

"why not" i ask "did you do something"

"i didn't do anything. i asked her for a divorce" he tells me "it hurt me being with your mother. josh and nathan aren't even my kids. that's why i couldn't be with her"

i kinda got sad after that. that means josh and nathan aren't my full bothers then.

"wait what" i say holding back my tears

"listen i wanted to see you guys. i even wrote letters to you guys but never got one back" he tells me "your mom didn't want me seeing you guys because she knew sooner or later you would know josh and nathan aren't my kids, if i were to see you guys"

"so what i'm hearing is that josh and nathan aren't even my full brothers" i say

it may not seem like a big deal but it is to me. i'm 16 and to have my moms death and this put on me is too much pressure for just a 16 year old. i don't hate my mom for it but i wish i would've heard this from her.

"i'm sorry y/n" he says to us

"so you wrote letters to us every day?" i ask

"yes" he says "i would really love to get to know my daughter. i already know so much about josh and nathan. i love them as if they're my own kids and i have loved you since you were just a baby"

i look down and start to play with my fingers

"you were there when i was born" i ask

"of course i was. when i held you, i was happy and i had never been so happy. i was so glad that i finally had a babygirl to spoil. i tried coming over for every birthday but i gave up when you turned 9. your mom never wanted me to see you" he explains

i start to cry because i felt so bad. all these years i've been hating him when he's been making a effort to see me.

"i-i'm sorry" i say as more tears fall

he gets up and hugs me as i cry onto his chest. yay first dad-daughter moment and i'm crying. i hug back immediately

"i would love to get to know you" i say