the strawberry dress | harry styles

12: making it official

it was a sunny day in london and had been two weeks since harry and i kissed and we hadn't made it official yet as i always dodged that conversation - but harry was adamant that we talked. i'd gone out in the morning to send some parcels as i owned a small jewellery business an he went out too and got some fruit and cut it all into cute shapes. he knew i loved cucumbers and even bought a mini cucumber and cut it into stars.

i arrived home and went to wash my hands when i saw what harry had done.
"what's this?" i asked as i turned the tap on.
"i wanted to do something for you! a-and i know you cant have lactose so there's none here" he gabbled shyly. a smile grew on my face. i finished washing my hands and went to dry them before hugging harry.
"this is all so amazing. thanks" i leaned up and kissed under his ear gently. "you're so sweet"
"i-it's not a problem" he blushed.
"and? you're lovely" i booped his nose gently causing him to chuckle.

we sat down to eat and...heck did i have to unload a lot to him - about dating and how fucked up i am. i had never been in a proper relationship before and a history of being mistreated by men and going through so many situationships. not to mention i was mentally ill as fuck. it was a lot for him to take in...he was literally lost on what to say as i did tell him some very personal things - but he listened. this was awkward. and  i really wanted to be with harry.

"darling, just because your mental health isn't the best...doesn't mean you aren't worthy of love. you most definitely are. everyone is. and im sorry that you had a tough time growing up and although this all may effect you today, it does NOT define who you are. you're still the same beautiful person i met a few months ago. and this doesn't change anything - i still want to be with you"
"i know i just...i dunno"
"it's okay. if you don't want to put a label on what we have going on yet...its okay. we can still...i dunno...kiss. or not"
"hmm...fuck it. harry, d'you wanna be my boyfriend?" i asked. he was taken by surprise but smiled gleefully.
"i would love that more than anything"
"okay cool we're...a thin" i didn't know what to do next but harry pulled me into his arms and kissed my head gently. "Will you do that more often?" I asked timidly.
"Of course i will love" he chuckled fondly.