Who Killed Lana?// Ryland Storms

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"Wake up." said Ryland waking me up. I looked at him standing next to the bed I slept on. "And you say you're staying here just to be sure I'm not dying."

"I was awake all night." I said. "I swear I slept a few hours ago.I had nightmares."

"Anyways if you wanna have breakfast you can." he said. "After that we will go to find a costume for Halloween party."

"What you'll be?" I asked.

"Dead." he said. "What you'll be?"

"Don't know."

"Cool." he said. Then he left to room, I went to bathroom for morning routine, then went to kitchen.
"Won't you have breakfast?"

"I'm having breakfast." he said lighting his cigarette.

"Coffee with whiskey and cigarettes. Cool, you're really good at this 'killing yourself slowly' shit." I said opening the fridge and taking the milk bottle.

"I learned it from the best." he said. "But she was preferring rose cigarettes, cherry coke and ecstasy. She had expensive tastes."

I smiled then opened the milk bottle. "Eww, Ryland this milk is spoiled."

"Then go buy new." said Ryland. Then he realized that my mood went down.

  "Addison, sit." he said pointing the chair. I sat down.

  "I'm sorry I didn't mean to be rude." he said. "I just lost all my grace since Lana gone."

"It's okay Ryland, we are having a hard time, it's normal to be rude. Also I was too sensitive. What you said was normal." I hold his hand. We sat awhile without talking.

  "Addison, when Lana started to date with Bryce and I asked you to fake date, were you just angry or still in love with Bryce?" he asked.

  "What?" I said. "I wasn't in love with him, I was just angry to Lana and Bryce. The fake date thing was totally stupid, what we were thinking, they'd break up and Lana turn to us? It makes no sense."

  "Do you remember she broke my arm once? I guess we were in Kio's birthday party. My baby was still in love with me, I was in love with her too but she couldn't leave Bryce, I was drunk as I always be, I started to talking shit and she broke my arm." he said.

  I laughed. "When we find out Bryce was cheating on me she twisted his arm and made him kneeling in front of me."

  Ryland laughed. "She was the meaning of bad bitch." Then he stopped and went to serious again. "Wish I treated her like she deserves."

  I put my hand on his hand. "Ryland I'm feeling this way too. She did everything for me and I was busy being a bitchy sister then."

  "But you kept being a bitch. Jaden and I talked to you, we said that she wasn't good but you weren't there for her.Shut up Addison, I'm still extremely angry to you about that and I don't wanna talk about it." said Ryland.

"Don't you think I feel bad for it?I'm suffering Ryland, I'm in pain, I hate myself. That's why I'm trying to find her killer. Maybe this can relieve my pain." I said. "Anyways, you said we should find costumes for Halloween, I'm going." I left the house and started to walk. Right now I'm so angry and upset, I cannot drive.

It feels so bad that knowing I'm the worst sister ever. I hate Bryce but I hate myself more. I wish I was dead instead of Lana. I walked in the streets desperately, then I saw a familiar face in the crowd.

"Kio!" I said hugging him.

"Addison" he said. "What are you doing here?"

God, what will I say, I'm shopping for Halloween party? No, I have to lie. "Umm...I just came to buy some foods for Ryland."

"How is he? I texted and called him a couple times but he didn't answer. It's understandable, he is in grief and probably he wouldn't want to talk with his wife's ex boyfriend." said Kio.

"Ryland is doing well." I said. "His phone is not functioning, probably he never saw that you called."

"How are you?" he said.

I need to talk with someone except Ryland. "Can we go somewhere and talk?" I asked.

We went to a cafe and sat. "Actually I'm suprised to see you out." I said. "I thought your grief would be longer."

"I was turning from her grave." he said. God, I wish I never spoke.

"Oh, I'm sorry." I said.

  He put his hand over mine. "No, it's okay. I thought the same thing when I saw you out there:Her sister died 24 days ago and is she shopping? It's normal that you questioning why am I out."

  "I never went to her grave." I said. "Not even after funeral at church."

  "I planted some beautiful roses there.You know she used to love roses, I'm going there everyday to talk with her, to apologize all the times I was bad to her." he said.

  "You were super nice to her." I said. "You know the suicide note that her manager published. She had the best lines for you."

  "You don't know." he said. "I never treated her like she deserves. She was so perfect and she deserved the best. When she was dating with Bryce, she kissed me once in my birthday. Then we had sex on Bryce's bed, after that we started to dating again but we were seeing each other secretly. To be honest she was cheating on Bryce with me. I was knowing she hates Bryce but I didn't know why. I thought she is just using me, we had a fight one night. I broke her heart really bad, I never learned why she was dating with Bryce but I know that times she was really in love with me. Just think about it, my biggest crush, the girl I'd die for started to fall in love with me but I rejected her. If I wasn't a asshole, everything could be different." He was crying.

  "You said you never learned why she dated Bryce. Well, I learned." I said holding my tears. "She did it for me. Because I was so stupid and I was so into Bryce, I couldn't see clearly and I trusted him, I trusted the devil himself. He had my nudes in his phone, some were the ones I sent, some weren't. He used them to keep Lana with him. I'm the reason." I yelled and started to cry. Everyone was looking at us and recording us. I get up and looked all the people that recording me. "I just lost my sister, I'm having a mental breakdown. Can you please give me some privacy?"

  Everyone nodded and I turned back to Kio. "You can't even imagine how I'm feeling. I want to die Kio. I want to die. Wish I was a drug addict and use them to forget everything just like Ryland did. He tooks a pill and bum! He forgets all the pain, goes to clouds to talk with God. He says he can talk with Lana when he gets high."

"Addison I'm sorry. I never thought she'd do it for you. Oh God, I told her that she fucked my life just to get a quick fuck from Ryland and Bryce." he started to crying badly. "Addison I'm the worst person ever."

  "No this title is mine." I said. Then I realized that all that paparazzi taking our photos secretly. "Kio they are taking our photos, I think we should leave now or they will start stupid rumors."

  We left the cafe and he went to his car, I kept walking desperately in the streets with the tears in my eyes....