Assumptions

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•trigger warning• <mentions of suicidal thoughts>

I woke up feeling oddly calm.

But only for a split second.

Then it all came crashing in at once.

Told you he didn't want you

Ugh your brave to even show your face

No wonder your mother didn't want you

Notice how Bailey has been spending more and more time away?

He could do so much better

Gain some damn weight, your so scrawny

No lose weight, your getting fat

Why do you think everybody leaves you after just one night?

Cause your WEIRD

I clamped my hands over my ears beggining to curl into myself.

This is to much.

I can't handle it.

I can't block them out.

Whimpering, I brought a hand to my mouth trying to stop the sobs that were threatening to come out.

He should raise his standards

For the love of god put those contacts back in

Dye your hair or something, you look so depressing

Well I guess you can't lead people on huh

Tears started to slide down my face as I desperately tried to stay quiet. I could tell from the pitch black that it was late. They shouldn't have to wake up to deal with one of my episodes.

I started to hyperventilate, sobbing into my hand.

I couldn't breath.

It hurts.

I'm alone...

Maybe I should do them all a favor.

And just get rid of myself.

"Rogue?"

I let out a small sob at the sound of the familiar voice.

"Rogue are you ok?" Boone whispered closing my door behind him.

He doesn't care

Send him away

He doesn't want you

Trembling I hid my face in the pillow.

"Rogue?" He put a hand on my back.

I jumped about a foot in the air.

"Rogue calm down! What's wrong?"

He's pretending

Don't fall for it

"I'm fine." I whispered the tears obvious in my voice.

He started to lay next to me but I pushed him away, sitting up.

"Rogue?" He questioned.

"Go away! I said I'm fine!" I wiped a few tears from my eyes.

I could see the hurt expression on his face, my eyes now adjusted to the darkness.

"Rogue stop it, your just hung over and tired." He argued.

He doesn't care

"I-..Just leave Boone." I whispered.

"No."

I silenced.

Tell him to leave

Tell him to go!

Tell him him you don't want him

But I do want him..

He lifted the covers crawling into bed next to me.

I hesitated.

He held out his arms to me.

"Come here."

I basicly fell onto him feeling the tears starting back up.

Sobbing freely into his chest now, he hugged me tightly letting me cry.

"It's alright.. you'll be alright." He assured me.

He'll leave you like the rest of them

He rubbed my back, "Breath.."

"Their to loud..it hurts.." I whispered starting to shake again.

Boone

I felt my heart clench.

Not being able to do anything to help him..its the worst feeling in the world.

I slowly layed down with him, he layed his head on my chest.

Yeah we were laying together.

But it wasn't like before.

All the other nights we would hold each other, or lay next to each other.

But tonight.

He was clinging to me.

Like if I let go,

He would break.

I always knew the voices were bad, but I had never seen a full blown episode.

They seemed to be worse after he drank.

Or maybe I did something?

Wasn't Bailey supposed to be helping him with this?

Rogue began to sniffle again quietly.

I leaned down kissing the top of his head, "Shh..you need to get some rest."

He quieted snuggling into my touch.

Thank god I woke up and got off the couch. I had been walking to my room when I heard his crys.

I glanced at the time.

Fuck it's four in the morning.

We're born going to be exhausted on our first day of school.

I sighed in relief as I heard Rogues steady breathing.

He fell asleep.

I tightened my grasp on him letting myself begin to doze off as well.

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